Thoughts for the 15th of July 2011

First thing i would like to announce, as of Tuesday this week i am officially back on the pill. i now await my Miss  to arrange with me to be fucked by a man, or even a few men. i am a bit apprehensive of this as i have not been with men for almost 5+ years now. i have pretty much been with women for the duration, and have not really missed men. i guess i am a bit anxious to see what i have missed, and i know my body and mind are conflicted to the idea. My body has been excited and wanting to experience this, my mind however is nervous and thinks this could lead me back to my "slut out" days, or at least similar.
A few scenarios i guess i would love to see, the first being having a group of men use me, while i am gagged, masked, earplugged, and my arms and legs bound so they are useless. This way i can not use any of my senses, and become nothing but a fucktoy. Unable to see what or who is taking me. Another scenario i would like to see is meeting my Miss, and having Her choose Her friends (which are younger than me like my Miss is) to take me at anytime She wishes. Thirdly i would love to actually try a shemale. i would love to feel how its like to be with one. i have always imagined it as being with a female, with the softness. Yet with the added addition of the male unit.
All in all i am excited as my Miss is taking me into a new phase in our relationship. i guess the pill is good as now i can sleep with men/shemales without the worry of pregnancy. Although i hope for the future i can become my Miss' personal breeder :-P