Goodbye and Thank You !! !!

i must say thank Y/you to everyone who has read my blog and commented. Thank everyone for the support !! Yes this will be my last update, it is time to move on. i did have a lot of fun doing this blog and i may very well do another one in the future. Do i regret any of the things i have done? No, i feel they were all very erotic. i felt like it had awakened me. Will i keep being submissive? i don't think fully, but mostly...i do think i am going to be more switch in my life. i do wish all my readers and my Miss well. If people wish to keep in contact with me i am missxtc on collarme.com and fetlife.com.

UPDATE

For those interested in why this blog has not been updated in a while. Back at the end of last year my Miss was away having to deal with a death of a very close family member. he was able to make it back to me for a short time but since the beginning of the year She has been experiencing a lot of depression. With that being said She has not been able to assign me tasks at all, so my blog has not been updated. Will She be back? i do not know. Will my blog continue? i do not know either. What will i do? i am not even 100% sure yet. i do know that i am giving until the end of this month before i consider removing this collar. Until then i am just putting my hopes in that She will just be back before then and end any of my insecurities. Thank everyone for the messages and the support on my blog <3

Assignment for the 31st of December 2011 - the 1st of Januarty 2012

Here is the 2nd Part to my long blog entry to catch everyone up to speed on my weeks worth of tasks from my Miss. After the events from the night before i spent much of the morning, into the afternoon in bed. Only getting up to wish "A" and her BFs a Happy New Year's and to lock the door behind them. i did eventually have to get up as i had to get to a pumping session. My body was sore all over, and i have not even gotten into my New Year's Eve celebrations yet. However this was the end of 2011. i felt excited at the possibilities in the new year. The mystery of what lies ahead. No matter how i felt i knew i had to get through this one last evening of tasks before my tired over sexed body could get some rest. i do love how my Miss pushes my body to its limits just to condition it. Its very arousing.
i spent the afternoon cleaning up my home. As it seems even the plastic sheets didn't get all the oil. i thought of all the different things i did through the year, and how much of a change it was for me this year. All the different things i went through. i never imagined that i would have become someone's submissive, let alone what i have transformed into. i vacuumed, dusted and mopped all the while listening to music and going through events in my head.
My cleaning was interrupted around 4:00 PM when i heard my door buzzer. Opening it up i would see my evening date my Asian friend "C". She decided to come early so we could spend some time just relaxing and enjoying each others' company.  Bringing her bags we also decided to help each other get ready for the evening. She watched TV as i cleaned. Both of us kept chatting though the entire time about just the most random things. i did tell her of some of my friends that were going to be with us later in the evening. As i finished cleaning i did take a small break to perform a pumping session while sitting next to "C". i thought it was cute how she tried to watch TV yet found herself trying to sneak views at me performing my session.
At the end of the session "C" and i went on to having a small amount of fun before we had to buckle down and get ourselves ready for our New Year's Eve celebrating. We both knew this was going to be the last time we did this, at least planned wise. We were both full of giggles as we tried to do this new "position" we have never tried before. We both took our time in working this all out, as we sat and discussed for almost 30 minutes in working out how we both thought this should have worked. With us both naked, "C" had her legs crossed with me on top of them straddling her legs, facing her. My arms were wrapped around her neck, with her hands on a remote and her cell phone. Remote to what? well i had the we-vibe on, so she would have control over that. We both just sat there with our eyes closed, trying hard to connect and concentrate on each others bodies.i was very excited about this as i thought of this as like bonding time, and i truly loved how creative we were about this. i always have found "C"'s talented skill of being able to cum without even fingering or touching other than crossing her legs and concentrating to be amazing. So just the thought of combining it with my orgasm control training just made me ultra horny. i could not do a thing, but sit there concentrating on the vibrations as they increased slowly with her wishes. i could tell she was increasing the we-vibe's speed setting based on what degree she was at in her search for her unaided orgasm. i would keep my body at the highly aroused state on the edge of my orgasm pretty quickly, as my body has grown accustomed to through the months of training. i savored every last second of this knowing this was the most likely the last orgasm of 2011. i felt very grateful for this as i know my Miss could have very easily have denied me for the rest of the year and said none until the new year. However with the week the way it had gone down i am sure my Miss would not have wanted to deny me until after it has gotten to 2012. i did not have to wait though as i could tell from the increasing pace that "C" was getting close. When i felt the we-vibe suddenly stop at the tone of my cell phone next to me begin to chime off Beethoven's 5th Symphony i squealed into my orgasm, diving in to kiss "C"'s lips as she came with me. Chucking the phone and the remote aside we both held each other trying to come down, and snuggling each other. i just loved how neither of us touched each other, or even ourselves yet we both came together. Also i left a huge wet stain on "C"'s lap which i did laugh about after we both regained our breathes and i was able to see the mess i made on her.
We spent the next several hours getting ready, taking a long and very sweet time getting ready. We would both take a shower (not together surprising enough) then work on each others' makeup and hair. No we did not get into anything kinky or sexy as we wanted to get ready in a hurry knowing if we delayed we would still be there getting ready when it struck 2012. We took nearly 2 hours on our makeup and hair, then another additional hour working on what to wear and all the accessories. When it was all said and done i found myself in blue jeans with a sleeveless top. On top i choose to wear a thinner black leather jacket as it was cold, and could possibly rain later. "C" wore a red top with jeans, which i thought looked very cute on her. Well i found everything cute on her, its the way she portrays it. As we finished preparing i did manage one last long pumping session so i would not be lactating through my bra-less ensemble. Knowing very well i would not be able to get another pumping session in for the rest of the year. As we finished we took a cab out to meet my friends.
Meeting up with a group of 6 of my closest friends we would all take the sky train downtown to go to Granville street a few hours before the New Year's. i have to admit with all the rushing around and hours or preparations i did feel a bit flustered. My nerves and flustered feel though did calm down a lot as someone i know was sneaky, and got a pair of bottles on board the skytrain. It was not like it was too difficult. We kept taking sips from the bottles, passing it around so we could get our pre-drinking underway. We did finish both bottles well before getting to our destination. Once at our stop we did walk towards the chosen club which we put ourselves on their VIP. Without being on the list we knew there was a chance they would not let us in so i am glad someone made the decision to get us on the list. Walking to the club, my friends kept passing around some joints, which i did partake in, and even passed "C" and i a cap of ecstasy each. For people who know me, my monicker has been "xtc" for years due to my youth when i used to take the drug a lot when i attended raves. Now being a lot older i have found myself not doing it very often at all, but still did occasionally for the right occasions. i did feel this to be one of them so "C" and i said "bottoms up" and took them down. i was happy to know that "C" did do the drug before and did not have a problem with doing it with me now.
At the club we still had to stand in line, although not for very long. i do attribute that for us being in a larger group of all girls. i think the bouncers didn't want us to freeze knowing that we did not dress warmly, plus there are usually more guys to girls ratio in the clubs. Us being a group of 8 girls with no guys made us a top priority to get inside. Once in the club we treated ourselves to drinks, drinks, drinks and more drinks. It was really packed in there and to get the drinks there was always a lineup, so we went heavy off the start with some shots, and made sure to carry around 2 drinks at a time to save from having to go back to the bar too quickly.
We spent the night much like a regular night at the club for my friends and i. We danced, drank, even made trips out to the smoke pit to smoke cigarettes and pot. As the evening wore on i felt more and more intoxicated by the combination of the drugs and the alcohol, and i could tell "C" was feeling it as well. We went from the dance floor, to the smoke pit a few times. My friends were really using the "NYE" excuse to make this a night of debauchery. i did not complain and wished to do the same. i do not remember the entire details of my time at the club as my mind was swirling from being intoxicated so badly.

 (here's a pic from my friend of me in the smoke pit. i really don't remember this, but i guess i needed a small break lol)

We kept on partying right through the evening all the way into the countdown. "C" and i sought out my friends and took one final round of shots and even carried a glass of champagne around to find a location to watch the clock tick. As the timer hit 1, and it became 12:00, we bid farewell to 2011 and hello to 2012 by screaming out loudly with all the club patrons around us. Right away "C" and i downed the champagne and went on to kissing like animals. i felt really horny, as i know she must have as well. We kept kissing for 5 minutes right into the new year. i did not really notice anything around me as i was fully concentrated on "C" but i did remember someone saying a comment about "not even needing air" or something of sorts. As the kiss ended "C" and i both agreed we should make our way to my place earlier than expected but not right away. "C" stopped drinking after the midnight smooch, but i kept on going. i always found ecstasy made me drink like a fish. Well more so than usual. around 1 AM or 1:30 "C" and i wished my friends a great evening and left the club to go looking for a cab to take us back to my place.
The cab ride home, "C" and i spent the entire time snuggling and kissing, paying no attention to the driver at all other than to say where to take us and to pay for the ride. i could tell from "C"'s eye gestures that she did not like the driver much, as he was what i thought creepy. He kept checking us out in the mirror, which i didn't really mind other than i thought it was creepy. i just ignored him, and did not think another thing of it as once we left the cab it would be just "C" and i, and i would never see that cab driver again. i found it funny that our time at the club was only slightly longer than our time we took to get ready, but in the state both "C" and i were in we did not care. We just wanted to get at each other.
At my place we pushed through the door and went right to kissing like horny animals once more, wobbling our way to my room where we landed on the bed and stripped each other. i should actually say we threw each others close off and went right to business. i have always known that ecstasy makes me horny, and i could tell for "C" it was much the same. We went right into the 69 position and i swear we were there for the next several hours. i assume we went into other positions but my mind was very blurry. i went into a sexual trance, as i was hypnotized by the ecstasy and of course the sheer pleasure of the sex. i never could cum while on ecstasy but i have always found myself to be on a level that was like hours of peak climax while sexually active on the drug. i did not cum without the trigger i don't think, nor do i think "C" really came but we both felt great during our time. i think we both passed out around 10 AM, in a sweaty heap. We snuggled and spooned right into the afternoon when we actually woke up. My weeks worth of sexual activity was finally wrapped up the way my Miss envisioned it. My 2011 ended with "C" being my last person i was with, and my 2012 started with her being my first person. i do hope my Miss is happy, as i know i am. i can finally rest my oversexed body for a bit, that is until my Miss sets up the first few tasks of 2012. i cannot wait and hope that my first full year as being Her's will be just as great as my just over half year with Her so far.

Assignments for the 26th -30th of December 2011

After receiving a few days to enjoy Christmas with my family and friends i knew that from Boxing Day into the New Year's i was going to be controlled by my Miss again. Do not get me wrong i was nervously excited and very willing. i will not go into major details of what i did over the holidays as i feel it to be personal and mainly for my Miss and i to know. However once the holidays celebrations were up i went right back to my tasks once more. My Miss had me arrange my schedule so that i would be alternating between a pair of my i guess "regulars", as in sexual relation partners. i would go one day with one, then another day with another. OR as my Miss said it, my services would be reserved for that day. i am going to post my week's worth of tasks in one long blog entry, with a second post telling of my New Year's eve right into New Year's day in another post for tomorrow.
Boxing day started as one would expect. i went through my daily routine, showering then performing my first enema. i didn't hold in the enema afterwards but i did slide in my catheter as that was my gift to my Miss. Although i was not doing any of the tasks from the previous weeks but the pumping, which i also included the masturbation during it as it was another tasks i felt my Miss would appreciate. i kept the time of the sessions the same as always between 15-20 minutes. My mind stayed on the same thoughts of bountiful amounts of good quality milk for my Miss, and pleasing my Miss by becoming Her milk cow slut. As i have kept up with, i did not orgasm, knowing that i should only cum on my trigger. i am beginning to notice more sizable amounts of sensitivity, and continued increases each day to my milk quantities. By the new year i predicted i would be just about a cup per day.
After that i went on to eat then head out for the next 4 hours to hit up boxing day sales. i did not wind up getting much but clothes, shoes and a GPS. Once i was done i did report home to perform another pumping/ masturbation session, then to pack my bag and get ready for later in the evening.
As it grew close to 5:00 i went on out to see my friend "A" and her 2 boyfriends. After going over to "A"'s apartment i dropped my bag off there knowing i was going to spend the evening there after. i normally would not stay, but knowing her roommate, which was my close friend who did not know i sleep with her and her men, was not going to be home for a week i decided it would be safe. We all decided to catch in a Boxing day hockey game as our hometown Vancouver Canucks were going against the Edmonton Oilers. Our seats were in the nosebleeds, but i did not complain as it was kind of our double date, but really it was just us all having some fun other than always having sex. That was to come later. Through the night we drank a lot of overpriced, and watered down beer, and even some of our flask of bourbon that someone snuck in. The game was fun, and we all did have a great time. The ending score was 5-3 with our Canucks winning. i was very happy as this was my first game of the season and it was a win. Also it was great to actually get out with "A" and her BFs and enjoy a more regular night.
After the game we made our way back to "A"'s place, where we kept on drinking, and eventually made it so it was naked drinking. i do not remember who started it, but i am more than sure it was "A". It was gradual as articles flew off randomly, until we were all naked and i do think very drunk. My mind was swirling, and i felt rather horny due to the holidays really putting a wrinkle in my tasks and training. i felt the need to really make day one of my week's worth of tasks really special. i wanted this to be extra impressive as i always have believed first impressions last forever. i knew if i started strong the rest of this week would flow smoothly. i felt the need to make my Miss happy.
Part way through our drinking "A"  actually reminded me that i needed a pumping session as i was overdue, so she had me sitting on a chair in front of the 3 of them as i pumped, and they all masturbated while they were watching me. They waited for the duration of the 10 minutes before they pulled the pump away and the 2 men started to each finish the last 5 minutes with their mouths. This drove me wild, and i saw where this was all going to go. i tried to make them hold on as i frantically made a text to "C" who was carrying on my orgasm trigger training since "K" my tranny regular was out of town. i messaged "C" to please send me texts sporadically through the night so i would not know when they would come. She did not text back, knowing it would send the trigger which left me wondering if she even got the message at all.
"A" took my Miss' words that i was booked for service days literally, as she was acting more like a director of my body than one who just was looking for sex. Right after the men finished suckling at my milk, both "A" and i took a male each and sucked them until their cocks were nice , hard and very wet. i have to admit i had not had a cock in a few days and since my Miss' conditioning i have grown a major craving for it. i now have a genuine love to be fucked by them, to suck on them and even to have their cum shot into me. i have refound my love of being fucked by hard cocks this year thanks to my Miss. i know i must have looked like such a cock hungry, wanton slut. i did not care though, this is what my Miss wanted me to be, and here i was with all my glory. i worked my mouth along one man's shaft and even switched to get a suckle on the other. i think i must have resembled some porn, although this was much more real. No acting at all. i savored this time, working from man to man, and even to "A" as my mouth was busy working them all up. i could already tell that i was very much just a toy for the 3 lovers.
i found us paired off, which i don't even remember which one of "A"'s boyfriends it was as i was fairly drunk off the alcohol and my own lust. i could see "A" next to me on her back, just the same as me, our legs were wrapped around each of the toned men as they pounded at us. i was moaning out of control, each thrust sent electric like shocks across my body. i did miss "K" at this point, which may have been weird but she was a major source of my being fucked by cock. Right at this instant i was feeling what i had missed. Everything from here went into a dizzy haze. i knew each man took a turn fucking me, and i am more than positive they must have been on viagra, or something of sorts. i know "A" commented to me in the past her men had those for some special occasions. i was pretty worried as i had not heard my phone go off for near 2 hours, but i was assured that i was shocked by the trigger tone going off right while i was being ravaged hard. i exploded into orgasm for the first time tonight, but this was not the last. i would hear my trigger go off an additional 6 times through the evening which i did not remember the time lapsed.
i was a sweaty oversexed mess. my pusy and ass were filled with lube and cum. "A" told her men that they were only going to cum inside or on me tonight which made me squeal out with raging lust. i know my mind was pretty much on auto pilot, as i was guided from one male to the other, and i was even fucked by just "A". i could not believe how much i was being fucked, i did not have any concept of time or when to stop, i just knew to keep fucking. i was eventually guided to being sandwiched by the 2 males, straddling one with the other one on top of me, laying across my back. "A" positioned herself at my head, legs wrapped around and using my tongue to pleasure her. By now i had long received my last text trigger from "C" as i assumed she had gone to bed by now. i was made into a communal toy for the 3 as they used me hard, each pumping away. i found the males each came inside of my holes 2 times each before they were finally spent. My mouth and tongue worked hard but did  bring "A" to orgasm 3 times before we all passed out. i do think "A" and i were the last 2 at it. i felt gross, completely coated in cum, sweat and lube, yet i felt great, that is until the morning.

i woke up on the 27th a sore and rough looking mess. i took a shower at "A"'s place and even had breakfast there. Along with giving each of "A"'s men a blowjob before i went off. i had kept on with my usual and gulped back their loads each, not wanting to waste any bit. The men in return aided me by milking me like a cow for the first time since i had began lactating. "A" i know had fun making names at me, calling me a "mel the milk cow".
i did make a quick stop at home to make sure i took my pills at the right time, and to give myself an enema as i had forgotten to bring it to  my date. However after my quick stop i met up with "C", my newer Asian female friend, who was controlling my orgasms from last night. We spent sometime trying to shop for some clothes, and having some coffee. Chatted. She did ask about last night, which i did not go into much detail besides that she was great help, and i really had much love for her for doing it. i found that i feel very open to her, although i had not known her for too long. She has this very curious, and accepting nature which makes her perfectly matched to me. Especially with so many conditions imposed on me from being owned by Miss. i do think in a lot of ways we are very similar, although i am still not sure if she is classified as a sub, or domme. i am leaning either on switch or just someone who prefers to get kinky in the bedroom. i am still majorly surprised that i have not scared her yet, as she has a very innocent demeanor. i did truly enjoy this shopping, and every other outing i have had with her. It feels like we are really getting to know each other, and that we are able to help each other in discoveries. i truly think we were attracted through chemistry.
Around 3:00 i took her with me to my parents place to celebrate with with my family and our annual Christmas dinner. We kept everything clean and wholesome, that is until i showed her my old room. She got to look through some stuff, and check out my old life. Also in that locked room she helped me pump my breasts of some of milk where she told me a fantasy of her's. She was telling me how my lactation really aroused her, and that she thought she had an adult baby fetish. Diapers, drinking milk, and dressing like a pretty girl. i knew i could not do it now, nor could i really feed her as i was not generating the fullest amount of milk i could. i could let her have a taste much like the men from last night, but i know she wanted more. i did really feel happy she was opening up to me with telling me more secretive fantasies. We did decide that any type of affection was to be confined in my old room where at least there was a lock. Inside this room was the only place we kissed or touched, but we did not do anything too sexual, as i felt weird about doing it with my parents home. i do think my father did not suspect "C" as anything more than a friend, although i think my mother thought she was my gf. i had come out to both of them years ago during my more lesbian years, which my mother has always been very supportive, and my dad tries very hard to ignore it. Out of respect to my parents i tried to keep any real affections out of their view. However if "C" was my GF i am sure my parents would not have minded. i thought it was great as "C" was very cute, offering to help my parents getting the meal ready, and then the table set. She even tried to make me do nothing, which of course i said no to, and helped with the cooking as well.
Dinner was pretty straight forward, we all ate, had some laughs and tried to go through everything without me pouncing "C". With how well she was interacting with my whole family, i really wanted to pounce her. i think a lot of it was from not being able to touch her, making me want her even more. However i kept myself in check, knowing this is how my Miss' property should act. The night actually went really smoothly and the time went by very fast. Once dinner and some chit chat ended i drove "C" and i to her place. Her parents were out of town for a few days and she wanted me there.
We didn't last too long as once we got inside i pounced her to kiss her all over, and aggressively tossed her clothes off and all over the place. We left a trail of clothes from the door to her room. In her room we kissed then groped each other before i pulled her to her parent's room, wanting her to be fucked on her own parent's bed. i would later find out she had never done anything like this before, having had a much more quiet lifestyle at home. She admitted this drove her wild, and that everything i do drives her wild with arousal.
Before we got into any sex though she was dying to drink from my breasts. She actually timed it well and it was about that time for another pumping session, so i did let her go crazy, suckling and trying to drink as much as she wanted from each of my nipples. i had her on my lap as she got to move from one nipple to the other taking her time and savoring the milk she could get for the duration of the 15 minute session. i was really loving the feel of people suckling and milking me with their mouths. i think a lot was due to the increased sensitivity of the nipples and the entire breasts themselves. i heard her moaning, but it could have easily came from me as i felt much pleasure, and my own heat increased with her's. 
Once she got enough we went right to business.  Our hands went right to stroking and groping each others' bodies. i could feel her warmth growing as did my own. We did not need much more arousal, but we needed to just fuck each other. Our hands made their way to each others' pussies, as we knelt facing each other with a hand each extended to between the other one's legs. i felt her wetness, and i felt my own grow. This was a major contrast from last night's fucking. i do not think i could have taken another night of that so soon, as my body was still sore. i was lucky though as "C" was very soft and delicate. This was very much more like making love than just a fucking session. i let my eyes close and just concentrated on pleasuring her and on the pleasure on my own pussy. It had a different feel from last night, yet a very welcome one. i felt warm surges through me. Finally though i felt her muscles convulse on my hand as she came. i was melting with her juices dribbling on my hand. i still could not cum though and i had not even realized why i had not cum until it was very obvious. My eyes shot open as i heard a familiar sound from my phone on the counter. i looked to "C" and she had her phone in her hand. i was shuddering as i exploded into orgasm now knowing that "C" recognized how to make me cum. i didn't even realize how much the training has taken over my orgasm until this moment.
i took time to absorb what i have learned, and to calm down. "C" and i spent the rest of the night snuggling, enjoying the warmth of each other and watched some TV. We did have a small sex break to 69 each other to orgasms, which felt amazing. We didn't do anything too kinky, besides some sex. My Miss did want me to get to know "C" a lot more and i felt this day was a long and wonderful day of discovery for both of us. i was excited to see where my Miss will eventually get us to venture to. The night did end around 2 AM when we both fell asleep on her parent's bed.

My Thursday, the 29th "date" did not begin until after work ended for me. i was suppose to alternate all week between "C" and "A" however "A"was unavailable due to some fighting with one, or both of her BFs. So tonight's date was still with "C" as per the schedule. Right at the end of my shift i drove out to get her from her home as her parents were back. She did ask me how my parents took it when i told them of my sexual nature when i was strictly lesbian on the drive to my place. i told her of the hardships and the eventual acceptance. i did not advise her to do such a thing unless she was ready for it herself, and we kept discussing this further until we reached my place. i do think a lot of this was brought on by the way my parents and i seem all perfect as they accept my different way of life. i did assure her it was a long work in progress, but it was one i was grateful to have done. She did express feelings that her parents would never accept her, and would disown her if they found out of her more bisexual nature. i did feel for her, and tried to assure her that maybe in time it would be accepted.
Once at my place she sat around as i washed up. Once out we worked on making some dinner, although i have to admit she did do a lot of the making if it, as i had to go through my pumping session. i did find her constantly watching my milking, and i did get a total sensation of arousal from it. It was not just the fact last day she told me how much she liked it, but the way she looked, there was that glimmer. We spent the night enjoying each others company, sharing the pasta we made, and doing nothing too much more than watch some TV.
We did discuss many things, and found we had a lot of other things in common. We both shared very similar feelings and even likes, and even meal choices. Eventually i found out even more about her sexual likings, and how she felt towards bdsm, as my Miss desired. i still did not think she is classified as a submissive or a dominant, but i knew she just liked kink in the bedroom, and is open to many things. This was very okay in my mind as she was young, and i could very well help her grow, or as some may say corrupt her.
 i told her of some of my stories of tasks my Miss put me through. i sat with her as she read through some of my blog entries. Randomly she did come across the one entry where i i met her at her work. She noticed what type of task i was performing when i met her while she was working many months ago. She said when she met me she knew something felt different, some sort of energy, but she could not tell why. She just said she felt compelled to talk to me. She was shocked this was the week i was in a diaper, with an open catheter as per my Miss' wishes. i did tell her more of my adult baby week, which i could tell really intrigued her. i told her how i felt, and the risks of being caught. How the humiliation made me horny for more. i sensed the humiliation factor turned her on, just from the way she perked up, and took a few more sharper breathes.
From showing off the blog, i went on  to show her my many toys devices, and things left from different tasks. i know her eyes saw the diapers i had left from the baby girl week. It did not take me long to offer her a try at my pacifier and diaper which i was shocked how open, free and willing she took to it. Next thing i know she had me put the diaper on her, with nothing but that from her waist down, and her own t-shirt on. i also put on a white bonnet i bought yet never used (which i gave to her) and my pacifier. She kept trying to make the noises Maggie makes from the Simpsons, which made us both giggle. She looked adorable, and even more so as she had the hugest smile from being made up like this. i could tell this was something she was really enjoying. This was one of her fetishes.
Sexually we did not get through as much as i did a few nights ago with "A" but i did get something done. We did get the we-vibe into me and try using setting one for the first time all month. We proceeded to kiss and touch each other as we did the other night at her place. It did not take long for us to find our way onto my bed, completely naked. i buried my head and face between her legs, knowing her hands were on her cell phone. The item to set off the trigger tone. i made sure to use only my tongue, and when i tasted more of her juices i used it as fuel to fire me up and make me work harder. i growled and worked my tongue with all the years of experience on show. i eventually made it to humming inside of her to add vibrations.
After a short while i made her cum. As She shuddered, thighs clenched across my face, she let her juices cover my face. i heard her set off my trigger tone of Beethoven's 5th Symphony so i would cum with her. i did not know if it would work, but the months of training made it possible. i heard the tone, and i was ecstatic at the fact my mind and body were able top recognize the trigger and i came right away on the lowest setting of my we-vibe. This is a setting i have never came off of, except now when pushed by my body's conditioning. After our little session, we went back to spooning for a while before passing out.
In the morning we did shower together and even eat together. Before we left though i made sure "C" was wearing the diaper, and that she had more for later. The last thing we did do was she aided me in my lactation pumping by actually suckling it like the baby i know she wants to be. i do hope soon enough i will produce more than enough to feed my newly discovered Asian baby girl.

Friday the 30th was another work day for me. However with it being New Year's, and having Monday off work ended earlier than usual. Work was no where near as busy as it should have, as many companies remained closed from Christmas, and some closed early being so close to New Year's. Right at the end of work, i went straight to my car and went to go pickup my friend "A". Since last time was at her place i insisted this time would be at my place, where i had a surprise for her and the guys. When i arrived to pick up "A", she apologized for the other night, but did say everything was all worked out. When i asked her where her BFs were then, she said they were out with the guys watching UFC and they would join us right after. With some time to kill before her boyfriends went to my place, she said as a sorry offering she wanted to order us pizza, which i of course could not say no to.
Back at my place "A"and i polished off a pizza, and an entire bottle of Grey Goose vodka she brought by, which i feel bad about now, but at the time i didn't even notice how quickly we finished it. The guys would eventually show up. Right through the door they said they were not going to do a thing until we all had a pair of tequila shots with them. The next thing i know there went 8 tequila shots between the 4 of us. At the end of the shots though i decided to spring my surprise for them. Pushing them all into my room i told them all to wait there for a few minutes. i had made preparations earlier in the day well before work. i woke up early just to go buy a few things. My surprise was a game i had not played in ages, a proud innovation of mine i made up about a decade ago. With the 3 of them in my room, i pulled my table out of the way, unrolled some plastic sheets around the room floor. Then i laid out s bottles of oil, and pulled out the centerpiece, the multicolored floor mat that is the game of twister. My favorite game in the whole world naked, oily twister. Now i did have my computer out and set on a page. With there being only 4 of us it was going to be hard to spin for colors. Luckily since i used to play the game, there are now online spinners (http://www.reiki-group.co.uk/twister/v0.1/). i did take much thought, even placing plastic wrap on my keyboard so i did not get oil on that too. i even made sure to tell "C" of the timeline tonight in which she should spread out textx to set of my trigger, that is when she felt like it.
Now that everything was set, i stripped naked and stood on the middle of the twister mat and began to oil myself with the baby oil. i called for them all to come out and watched for their reactions. They came out to smiles, laughs and giggles, as i introduced them to the game. i kept explaining the rules while i rubbed oil all over me. i did a bit of humiliation coming from being the only one naked and oily at this point. At the end of the explanation i did ask if they got it, and they all said yes, and jumped right into stripping. As they stripped, i did make a wager to the guys, saying how this should be "A" and i against them. The wager i made was if we won, they would let us take them with strap ons, and if we lost they could do anything and everything to us. One commented that they already did do that which earned a slap from "A" jokingly. i did keep goading the men on more, until i got them to agree. But in agreement that we could only take them once for only 10 minutes maximum, and if we lost besides that we would do anything and everything they wanted for the rest of the night, the men would get to use me as a toy for their next UFC party. i did agree as i was very confident. i mean i do consider this to be my game.
With the online spinner set at 30 second intervals we went right into the game. Now if anyone has ever played twister you will note it always puts you into odd positions around other people. The oil itself just made the game a lot more challenging, but being naked makes the game oh so very erotic. The first several rounds were relatively quick as it was an adjustment period for all of us, but once the middle rounds were underway it became a lot more competitive. Around the same time is when we all started to get more flirty, using what i call flirty trash talk. At one juncture i had one of the males under me with his cock pointed to my butt. i just loved how it was rock hard and he tried to taunt me bu poking my butt with it. i did get the last laugh as i pushed my butt to his hard cock and wiggled, making him collaspe on the other male. Another very vicarious position i found myself in was with my knee around between "A" leg, i found my face about inches from a nice hard cock, which of course set me off full of thoughts about sucking that cock. With my mind in the clouds i didn't actually see it coming although i should have. Yes he poked me right in my mouth which made me gag a bit and fall down losing that round.
By the end of the game "A" and i wound up winning by a fair amount, although the men insisted we cheated. However they did agree to the prize. Although they were very against what was coming, voicing their disdain very vocally. They did get on all fours, as "A" and i each put on strap on dildos. i was no longer really drunk, but i was really worked up and horny. Not to mention hyper after winning, and i was excited to claim my prize. With both men on all fours next to each other, "A" and i got behind them and each slid in an oily dildo into each men's puckered rear entrances. i was not sure if either had ever done this, but i was pretending they had not so we could be their firsts. i started slow into his butt, working it much like the way i preferred it to be slid. Slowly insert some, then work it back and forth gently, each time pressing a slight more in until it has fully been worked in. i know i was going pretty gentle, and the men i knew secretly was loving it. i did think if they had not they would have gotten soft, but both men remained very hard. i took the entire 10 minute span, wanting to use up every last second of this. i kept my pace increasing steadily, like i know i would but i could not really make my prize cum.
Once the span ended "A" and i did remove our dildos, and let the men regain their pride. i did say that if the men were in pain and were angry they could feel free to take it out on me, which lasted all of 2 seconds before both men grabbed me and dragged me to my room where i had plastic laid across my bed knowing this was going to be the eventual outcome. i was tossed onto my own bed and both men ravaged me and began fucking my butt and pussy with no remorse. i could tell they wanted to make me hurt like they just did. i knew they blamed me, as i was the one who goaded them into it and made the wager. i really had this planned well, as i knew they would fuck me raged, which they did. i could not believe how hard they fucked me, and yes it did feel like bliss. During they piston like fucking i did get triggered into orgasm twice. After a while we all got into a huge fuck session, going through every variation between the 4 of us, except for the guys with each other. Just like how my Monday was like, this day was just as intense if not even more. i found myself coated in sweat, oil and filled with cum to both my pussy and butt once again. i let my lust cloud my brain and my body go with the flow. i do think after a while "A" came herself out. i guess that's how i would have been like if i had not had my orgasms controlled and spaced out by "C". When "A" did not want any more orgasms she began to take me with the strap on she took her lover with. i felt like a rag doll being tossed from position to position, or more like a "Real Doll". A human formed fuck toy. The description even fit what i was at that moment.
i do think it was 4:30 or 5 AM that we finished an even cleaned up the place a bit and all got showered.  Seeing as it was already late i asked them all to stay there for the night, saying my bed was big enough for them all. They were pretty tired as was i, but we still had it in us for one last fuck in the bed with both men laying there and both "A" and i riding them until they came and we all passed out together. i had not played naked oily twister in years, yet this night showed me why it was one of my favorite games of all time. Its fun for everyone to play, and even watch. Not to mention everything is better when everyone is naked and oily. Also finally historically every time i played this game, there were never losers, everyone winds up winning, and the result is always a lot of animalistic oily sex.

Assignment for the 23rd of December 2011‏

Before i start....MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE !! !!

It all started as a notion. A few weeks ago my Miss asked me to begin some research into induced lactation. Right away my mind was filled with many nervous thoughts and feelings. i'll lie if i say i never thought of this, nor was aroused by it. Just the notion of it happening so soon shocked me into nervousness. From there this lead into my Miss' getaway to clear Her head. During that time i went online to look through a few websites, and doing my research into what were the best ways to inducing lactation. i eventually pinpointed one webpage that had all the information i was looking for, and that also gave realistic timelines to the whole procedure. i remember the thing that caught my eye the most was the different methods that would work in production of the milk, from taking pills from the pharmacy to taking herbs. The herbs method really caught my eye, so i did decide early on to try out this method. i do think a lot of it was the fact the 3 herbs all had relatively funky names, that being fenugreek, blessed thistle, and marshmallow root. Although i was filled with much speculation, i did more research and found 2 other sites mentioned the same 3 herbs. Through that i went on to reading reviews and many mothers gave good reviews to the herbs, and even stated how each of them effects the production of milk. Each herb helped producing the milk, making the milk thicker, more in quantities, and making it a pleasing taste. Following the research was some waiting until my Miss' return. i did not really think too much more about the lactation as i did not know when my Miss would return.
After Her return, and a little time for Her and i to get back into the swing of things, She did assign me to begin the steps into self induced lactation. The first thing i did was buy the items i required. i did my research looking into where in town i could get the capsules, and where i could buy a breast pump. The capsules were all easy enough from a well reputed vitamins store. But the pump took more research to find one locally for a decent price. i did worry that i would have to spend an arm and a leg for the device, but my research did lead me to one place that was a far drive but had the device for a great price that was not matched by anyone else. While buying each of these items i got a feeling people around me knew why i was buying these things, and to the right people it would be obvious. i also had a thought how people must be looking at me thinking i was pregnant, and because i was there with no one, it was because i was slutting around. My mind kept filling with different thoughts throughout the time in the vitamins store and the pharmacy. Once all the items were purchased, i did have some relief, although i also had some nervousness knowing what was to come.
i waited until the next day so my Miss would give the okay to begin. Once She said to begin i started that day with more nervousness than the day before, yet i did feel much pride to push myself to make my Miss happy. i did take some time to plan out when i would take each capsule, and worked out a schedule as to when i would use the pumps, as the websites said that i required 15-20 minutes of pumping. Also i was to mentally envision my milk production, as psychology was a major part of this procedure from what i read. The part i first worried about the most was my pumping session at work, as i always worry there of being caught in the middle of an act and lose my job. When the first day rolled upon i remember feeling like i should jumps right in so i do not think anymore and right in the morning i took my set amount of pills. Then shortly after going right to a pumping session knowing i would not produce a thing just yet. My first session at work was not actually that bad as i know the handicap washroom is pretty secure. At the end of the day though i did feel exhausted, humiliated, and yet extremely horny. The orgasm to the trigger tone really felt like bliss this night.
As the days went on my tasks were increased and each time generated new feelings. When i had to wear the we-vibe then the vibrating plug after i got the major feel of being owned, as my body was slowly being claimed for use by my Miss. Along with those emotions, the herbs began to change my body, as i felt some mood swings, or extreme moods. Like feeling sluggish, more tired, and even excruciatingly horny. So when my Miss ordered me last week to add in the catheter and my "cock", in my strap on dildo, i felt like i was totally controlled. My butt, my pussy, and my breasts were all being conditioned for Her likings. i had no control, and felt the humiliation of not having any control of my own body parts. My emotional roller coaster was not over there, as i had major anxiety over my milk production. My breasts did not really increase too much, just a little bit. Also the sites said that by 10 days i should have had drops of milk. After 12 days i did not get any, and as each passing day i was expecting but left disappointed, and worried that i was doing something wrong. However by day 15 i got to my desired results, which left me ecstatic. i was extremely happy to get my Miss' task completed. i was also a lot relieved when She said She was surprised that i got milk so soon, after worrying i was not producing fast enough.
Now i am just going through each day going through the set routine. At first the routine felt very foreign and it was a struggle to remember exactly when to do what. However now i have done it each day enough times that its now just a embedded routine that i flow through by instinct. i am still not producing a lot of milk but it is steadily increasing. My breasts and nipples have grown considerably a lot more sensitive as i know even the breeze on them feels different. My physical, mental and sensuality have all been slowly changing as more time has gone by. The longer i have gone through this the more relaxed i have felt of every task. Feeling every part of me owned by my Miss actually leaves me horny each day or every hour, and i love this feel. i hope soon to produce enough to be my Miss' milk cow slut. Right at this moment i am looking at myself in the mirror and i am naked except for the butt plug, my strap on "cock" with the catheter attached, and i am going through a pumping session as i write this. i know i have been masturbating with my sessions for the weeks of trying to induce lactation. However my Miss has granted a relax on the tasks for the holidays (due to family) and i am just winding down now. i am excited for the new year as my tasks will be back into full swing, and also when i produce enough milk, maybe some milk enemas.

Assignment for the 16th of December 2011‏

With my time now being very limited due to work, Christmas, and family i was not able to get up to any date activities this weekend. i do feel very fortunate to have the best Mistress in the world, who showed much understanding. Even with that i have found myself feeling like i have not met Her expectations, as if i am lacking something. i do think my fondness to Her, the tasks, and Her total control of me are strong and evident. Through the week i went through my routines from the week before, but of course my Miss would up the ante more as its Her usual nature.
For the week i started off much like the week before. Waking up i would right away drop to the foot of my bed to prayer and make thoughts of my Miss. From there i would make my first washroom trip to wash myself and get my daily beginning of the day enema. After the enema, i would give myself a second one, that is not as bit, then followed by using my black plug to hold it in. This is what my task was last week, but for this week i had more to do.  It had been many weeks, maybe even over a month now, but it has returned. After the plug, i took out my catheter and slipped it to my urethra. i did worry about not being used to it, but it was like riding a bike, once i got into the movements, my body was used to it as its been conditioned to do for months this year. Once it was fully inserted i would get out my harness, with my ejaculating, vibrating dildo to slide in. Once done i began to secure the catheter to the underside of my new cock with elastic bands. If not for the many months of training i would have felt weird, but it did not. i did love the feel of my body feeling more controlled than it has been since Her return. My pussy, my butt, my nipples were all Her's to control. i felt more like Her's than ever. My body was all for Her, i was, and will always be Her's.
After the washroom i went through my usual parts of my routines, getting my things packed, and having my breakfast. During breakfast i kept on taking my timed number of capsules to help induce lactation, to build the quality and enhance the quantity. Then before getting dressed and leaving for work, everyday i would go for my timed pumping session with my electric breast pump. While i did this i had one had on the pump, and my free hand under the harness to masturbate and rub my clit as hard and rough as possible as per my Miss' instructions last week. i would keep this up for 20 minutes, with my mind on producing milk, and doing so in great quantities for my Miss. i had a whole roulette wheel of things i think of during my masturbation sessions that i always cycle through in my mind. All those things of course revolve around the milk production and my Miss, and different aspects of this. i know my mind drifted quite a bit every time but i kept shifting it back to its original train of thought. My breasts have not been noticeably bigger, maybe just a tad, although by the beginning of this week my nipples did feel a lot more tender and sensitive. By Wednesday, December 14th all my hard work finally lead to the desired results. By my morning pumping before work i got a few drops of milk from my nipples. Actually even before the pumping, the feel of my breasts and nipples gave me a strong feel of sensitivity, and i kind of already knew it would be coming. As the few drops came out and to the containers on the pump, i watched myself in the mirror and admired what i called my "Frankenstein" owned slave body. i looked from my cock, to my nipples being pumped at, to my butt being plugged to hold in an enema.
At the end of the session i did not cum, and i decided to taste my few drops of milk to see how i tasted. It tasted pretty good, and i was impressed that all the capsules had helped my milk grow pretty thick, non-bitter, and fairly sweet. Right away i had to get myself dressed and off to work. Once at work, i went to the handicap washroom to slide my we-vibe into myself, having to slide it under my harness and avoid mt catheter to slide it against my clit and g-spot. With the toy set on a low setting i went on to work with it stimulating me. i felt really weird, as if i was made to wear a lot additional accessories. i felt very self-conscious as i worked through this week. Not only was i more aware of my breasts and worried people would notice their increased size (which was actually not noticeable), but i was also worried my cock would be noticed, or people would hear the vibrations from my we-vibe. i don't actually think anyone noticed with the busy work atmosphere, but it still did keep me on edge.
Everyday at the end of the 2 hour lifespan of the we-vibe, i relocated quickly to the handicap washroom known as my "office" so i could remove the we-vibe, and my butt plug. Also by releasing the butt plug i would let the enema be expelled. As i let the enema expell, i kept my legs parted wide and my hands both to between my thighs. One hand reached under the harness to stroke my clit and pussy as hard and rough as i did with my masturbation/ pumping session. My free hand was over my cock stroking it, so i could watch myself in the mirror. i looked like such a slut, but not just any slut. i was my Miss' lactation, catheter wearing, cock owning slut. As the enema was fully expelled i would stop masturbating and reached back into my bag to get out my vibrating butt plug. Slipping it to my well used and owned butt, i pushed it fully in and put it onto the lowest setting. Once it was going i got re-dressed and back to work.
Nothing too much happened besides sitting at my desk to feel the sensation of the vibrating butt plug, or feeling my cock shift in my pants. i admit that there was a constant feel of humiliation everyday or every second that followed me. It was a constant reminder of being Her's. Not too much usually happened from this point to my lunch besides the occasional washroom break, where i would pee standing up. Using my cock like a man i would pee in the bowl. To be exact all week i peed like this, giving my Miss total control of my femininity and body.
At lunch i would use the first 10 minutes to wolf down my small meal, then my capsules before heading back to my "office" so i could perform my mid shift sessions. During this session i did like earlier, i kept pumping and using one hand to reach under my harness to roughly masturbate myself off without cumming. My mind shifted through my set cycle of milk production and thoughts of my Miss. Each passing session from the Wednesday successful one proved to produce slightly more milk, which made me overly excited.This session did not differ at all from my earlier of the day ones, with the only difference being the vibrating butt plug.
For the whole week the last half of my shift dragged. Maybe it was the fact it was the busiest its been all year, or maybe it was the fact that i still had to endure 4 hours of constant vibrations and a feel of humiliation that carried with me. Or maybe it was just the fact after work i would be able to finally get release at some point. At the end of my shift i rushed home everyday, and once home i stripped of all my clothes, leaving on my "cock" and catheter.  From there i would charge up my we-vibe and have some dinner and go through one pumping/ masturbation session before dinner. At the finish of the dinner and the we-vibe charge i would slip the we-vibe on and set it on setting 2 then await my trigger tone to be sent by "K" my tranny friend or "C" my new Asian friend. Each day i would message the one i wanted to control my training then sit there stroking my cock, and watching some TV and letting myself get to the edge. For everyday of the last week i would not actually cum at all until i heard my trigger tone of Beethoven's 5th Symphony. i loved this tasks and cannot wait until i get to its final form. i did experiment and knew that i still needed more time on the 2nd setting of the we-vibe, but i did expect that in the 2 weeks after this one i would be switching to setting 1, and eventually no stimulation at all. i never knew when i would recieve the text message, but i always did get it within the 2 hour lifespan of the we-vibe. i found myself feeling a lot of impatience as i wanted to be able to get to cumming on command. i wanted to give this extremely badly to my Miss for Christmas, but my timing is not going to allow it. i find myself looking forward to this orgasm each day, as this was the only orgasm allowed each day. The one thing i have noticed is that although i have not mastered this trigger tone, i did note that i have grown to a point that i require the tone to cum as its something i have grown accustomed to, although not to the desired point yet.
Most my days of the last week were like this, with the training made into a set routine. My lactation seemed to grow more daily, as each day i would get slightly more milk. i think in a week to 10 days i will be making enough milk to feed a baby appropriately. i know this is what my Miss was wishing, and i trust in Her tasks and wishes to the point that i do not question any of Her wishes. i did have some dirty thoughts of breast feeding either "C" or "K", and even using the milk for an enema, which were thoughts i have developed while getting to my daily triggered orgasms.
Through the week i went through many different feelings and emotions. With the strongest of them being nervousness, humiliation, devotion and excitement. i did feel very nervous at the risk of being caught with so much attached to me. The risk also provided me with constant feels of humiliation. Every feel of humiliation and stimulation did reinforce feeling of being owned by the most wonderful Miss ever. That feel on total control to Her has made me happy, and extremely horny. With my progress to my orgasm control training and also my lactation finally successful has left me feeling much pride and happiness that i am able to please my Miss and fulfill Her desired outcomes to Her set tasks.
Now come the weekend i was not able to get out onto my usual type dates, although i still kept my daily pumping/ masturbation sessions going every 3-4 hours through the weekend. That is in between seeing family, and friends for one of my many Christmas dinners, going to a concert with my cousin, and attending a funeral for the mother of my friend. My Miss although initially disappointed, has shown the understanding that makes Her perfect for me. However personally i feel a bit lacking and disappointed in myself. i did promise to my Miss that in the next few weeks i will be doing different set tasks for my Miss that leads all the way to the end of the year and into the New Years'. With Christmas and New Years' on the way i am very thankful to have Her, and i hope that i will please Her more so than ever, especially once all the holiday busyness comes to an end. <3

Assignment for the 10th of December 2011‏

With the weekend finally hitting after my week of Christmas shopping, work and my lactation tasks. It felt great to finally be at the week's end. i spent the afternoon taking care of some wrapping of presents and to concentrate on my breast pumping/ masturbation sessions that i timed for every 3-4 hours through the day. From what i heard i should be producing milk within the next few days as i have been following a good routine. i did make sure to hold in my enema like i did for the weekdays for the first 2 hours of the day with a butt plug, and when i released it i made sure to masturbate as hard as possible. At the end i did make sure to change the batteries of my vibrating butt plug and slide it into place on low. i do love how my Miss has claimed my butt again, it makes me feel totally owned. Between sessions and between gifts i was wrapping i did fall asleep for  a nap showing just how tired the week had made me.
After lounging at my home for the majority i did begin to get myself ready for my date for Saturday at around 6:00. Making sure to get myself as pretty as possible, and making sure i get my capsules and one last session in with the breast pump as i would not be able to for a few hours. i went on to wearing jeans tonight with a red sweater for tonight. Underneath i wore just a red bra with no underwear, since i have not worn any in over half a year now. After my last extra long pumping session i did drive out to go pickup my date "C" the young Asian girl whom i went out with the last weekend.
Right after parking i waited for her to walk up to the car. i could tell that she still lived at home with her parents as i saw them wave to her on her way out. She entered the car and immediately hugged me. As i began driving we both started chatting and did not stop one bit as we drove out to our restaurant, which was Japanese as we both loved sushi. We didn't talk about anything too specific besides talking about how our week went. We kept everything fairly vanilla. That is until she asked if i did anything BDSM'ish. i did hesitate and think to myself if i should tell her about it. At this point we pulled up to the restaurant so i did pause that topic so we could enter and sit down at our table.
Once we put in our order, i did bring up the topic again and i began to fill her into my every tasks. Going from my pills and pumping for the lactation, and going into my double and tripled up tasks, to even how they are turned into masturbation tributes for my Miss. i told her of how i was also working on my orgasm control training that would eventually result in my cumming on command to the trigger tone. She did ask if i had the plug in now which i responded yes, and she then asked if questions about the trigger tone. My tasks and tributes through the week, and even weeks before dominated our conversation through dinner, which did help calm me a lot. i did get a strong feel that she was extremely interested in BDSM although having never had the chance to be involved, or even gaining knowledge. We went right through our meal and even the after sushi jello without the topic really changing. Through this i got some interesting vibes from her, ranging from interested, to extremely interested, to aroused. Either way i did not get any negative feelings from her which made me think of what i should do later. i know i was feeling more adventurous as ideas were flowing to how i could take this up a notch.
After dinner i was taking "C" to go get some gelato when she decided to do something different. My attention was on telling her more about my BDSM ways and on the road when out of the blue i would hear my trigger tone coming from her phone. i stopped on the topic and was shocked. My mind shifted right to my vibrating butt plug, and to my surprise i fell into a small orgasm as i looked over at "C". She asked did it work, and i nodded, which made her laugh and giggle out. i pulled the car right away into an alley, and into a parking spot to a closed pizza place. i growled to her and she thought i was getting mad at her, but it was more a sexually charged aggression. She just made me get aroused beyond belief. i kissed her aggressively and groped her, which i could tell she was not used to, however through her nervousness i could tell she was loving it. My hands groped her through her dark red sweater, with my one hand groping under it eventually and my left hand sneaking to her black tights covered legs. We never moved from the driver and passenger seat as i decided to make this like a quickie for us. My hand reached its hand under her tights and i pressed 2 fingers to her slit. i felt it was completely soaked as i fingered her slow to start. i rubbed my finger and stroked faster as each few strokes went by. Her legs parted more as she squirmed in her seat. Her sounds were adorable and she made tiny high pitched moans that made me want to work harder on her. Eventually she would grip my arm and the door arm rest and squeal, cumming out to my fingering her. i pulled my hand up and began to suck her juices off my fingers, and i found she had some extremely tasty juices. i had to reach down for another finger full. i loved looking into her face as she looked like she was glowing. She was very embarrassed by how she looked although i thought her euphoric look was just plain gorgeous.
From there, once he recovered we did get our gelato and drive over to a beautiful view point to sit and enjoy our dessert. i could tell that she was a lot more open now than ever before. i learned that she had this little trick which i have only heard one other person was able to do. She said she could cum without anyone touching her, or using anything. She said all she needed to do was to cross her legs, have plenty of space so her legs and toes could stretch out and just concentrate hard. his really intrigued me, and gave me much hope that in time i will be able to cum just from hearing Beethoven's 5th Symphony. If She cum without anything, then i think if i conditioned myself fully i would be able to cum on just the trigger. i said to her of how i felt which made her happy as she said she liked the concept of this task. i did say i wanted to see her cum with her legs crossed which prompted me to driving to my place with her.
We made it to my place and walked to my door. We kissed as i pinned her to my door trying to open it without looking since my eyes were on her and my lips were busy kissing her. We made our way in and began to strip each other. Once we were both naked i pushed her to my bed and said i wanted to see her trick right now. As she sat there with her legs crossed i watched and slowly began to prepare myself, slipping on my we-vibe, leaving my butt plug inserted and then pulling on my 6 inch strap on dildo, not wanting it too big on my first time with her. As i did i began to put some lube on it and stroke it to spread my cinnamon scented lube along it. i kept my eyes on her as she crossed her legs and closed her eyes. i watched as her chest rose and dropped, i could see her definite arousal, and i was filled with intrigue to see her cum without her hands. Her hands laid to the side and gripped to the edge of the bed which i could tell was her spasms making her do it. i felt myself getting more aroused by watching her, it was a gorgeous sight. After a while i saw her legs straighten and her toes curl then she exploded into an orgasm, that was very similar to the one i induced in the car earlier.
As she finished i dove on her right away and  pulled her up to the bed and away from the edge at the foot of the bed. My head dove right between her thighs as i licked and lapped at her juice covered pussy. i was in heaven, her scent was intoxicating and her taste was exquisite. i could tell she did not even come down fully from her own induced orgasm and was ready for more. My tongue squirmed all around side of her, then flicked, and even rolled around in small circles. Her orgasms made me want to make her cum even more. i kept wanting to eat her more as her sounds just made my body want to work harder. After a while though i did get a "fuck me, fuck me hard" coming from her lips, which sent me climbing up to kiss her lips and press the dildo into her soaked canal.  i began to roll my hips so the strap on slid in and out of her. i kept the rhythm increasing steadily and my lips were permanently stuck to hers. We kept kissing, our lips only parting so we could moan more. With the vibrations of my butt plug and the we-vibe my body was going as crazy as her's, i knew we were both going to cum hard. i heard her saying she was close, and i did get a glimpse of her grabbing her cell phone from the the bed stand. i kept my pace increasing and as she said she was about to cum i see her pull the phone to her view and then i heard it, my trigger tone, and we both kissed hard. i knew it she was cumming and wanted me to cum too. We both came hard, as i collapsed on top of her, our lips connected in a deep kiss.
We spent a long while embraced and regaining ourselves. But our night was coming close to an end. She did stay long enough so i could do one pumping session in front of her before we went to my car so i could drive her home. The night absolutely ended when i was in front of her place. We kissed one last time and parted ways. She did say she really wanted to see me very soon. i watched as she entered her place and drove off happily that this date was a major success.

Assignment for the 9th of December 2011‏

With Christmas around the corner and my Miss' tasks this week i have been running around like mad being busy. i'm going to post an update of all the news from this week, followed by my tasks for the week. i will describe my Friday being my culmination of all the new changes added by my Miss through the week.
First bit of news, at the beginning of the week i did ask my Miss if i could offer my collar to my beautiful tranny girl kelly. Miss Lindy kindly agreed, so by mid week, i announced to kelly of her ownership which made her extremely happy. i have given her 2 very playful and slutty tasks for her to accomplish in the next while, and hopefully posted in full on her blog. (http://kellysmissy.over-blog.de/)
Secondly my task in trying to induce lactation has not resulted in any milk produced yet. However i have noticed my breasts and nipples getting a lot more sensitive. My breast size also has not changed too noticeably since i have been taking the daily regiment of capsules. On a funny note i have noticed my pee to smell more like maple syrup which is an effect of the fenugreek i am taking 3 times a day with the blessed thistle. Also another side effect i have noticed is that all the capsules i have been taking have left me feeling more tired and drowsy at different times, in case people wondered why it has taken me a while to get some of my blog entries off.
For those of you who were curious what happened to the young Asian girl i went out with named "C". No i did not abandon her, it was just a meeting. My Miss did ask that i try to meet up with her this weekend. i did make some calls Thursday and Friday and i will be seeing her on the weekend. What we will be up to, i do not know. est assured though i will be working hard to fuck her as per my Miss' orders. That also means what happens will be on my weekend "date" blog entry.
With Tuesday of this week i began to perform added "additions" to my Miss' tasks from last week. Describing my Friday, i woke up as usual and immediately going through the set routine i have had built into me. After my customary prayers to my Miss, i went to the washroom to go through my my cleaning regiment. At the end of my shower i went through my normal enema, but to end it off i did give myself a second full bag enema. This time though i went on to add my butt plug to hold it in as per my Miss' new additions to my already busy tasks. i was still very proud to be doing this task for Her. Following my events in the washroom i went to have my breakfast and my first set of pills that induce lactation. i did notice that i was squirming to hold in the enema as i am used to holding it in for longer periods than a few minutes any more. i used to do this a bit more a few months ago but recently i have been a bit more relaxed with my butt training as my Miss wanted me to give it some well deserved rest.
At the end of breakfast i went on to my timed breast pumping session. As i used the pump i reached my hand to my mound and began to finger myself as hard as possible, bringing myself to the edge of my orgasm within minutes, and maintaining that level for the duration of the 20 minutes of the pumping without cumming. My mind was on my body producing milk, and on my Miss. Thinking how i would please my Miss by creating plentiful high quality milk, and also keeping a portion of my mind on not pushing into my orgasm. i have noticed by now that all my orgasm control training has lead me to be a lot stronger on preventing accidental orgasms from passing without permission or from my trigger tune.
Once i was done my pumping session i did prepare to go to work. i continued to hold the enema in still through my entire drive to work as i have been doing everyday this week except for Monday. While i drove i did have slight distractions to start the week however through the earlier part of the week and subsides by Thursday. Once at work i would check my schedule and drop my things at my desk. From there i made my way to the handicap washroom that's been dubbed my "office". The first shift on Tuesday i did not perform this addition, however by Thursday i did  begin to add this new task. Once in the washroom i went into my purse to produce my purple we-vibe and slide it into me. The 2 ends of this toy pressed to my g-spot and clitoris. With the remote i would set the toy on its 2nd setting before putting the remote away and making my way to my desk to start work.
i would go on to working for the first quarter of my shift while feeling the toy buzz against my 2 erogenous regions. i was very fortunate that Miss had me set it on the 2nd setting as it was a setting which i normally would not be able to cum on. It did however keep my mind on it, and with that a constant reminder of my Miss' control over me. However at the end of the 2 hour battery life of the toy i would make my way back to my "office" to complete the next step of my Miss' new additional tasks for this week. Removing the we-vibe, i would prepare myself by removing my butt plug and slowly expel the contents of the earlier enema. My right hand would travel between my thighs and i began to finger myself as hard as i could, my left hand would join in and massage my clit with as much strength as my right hand. This was a very odd feeling as i have never masturbated to the expulsion of an enema before Thursday and on this Friday. It was still a very foreign feeling to me that i was working hard to overcome. i knew it would just take a lot more practice to make this feel less foreign and odd. The only good thing of the odd feel was this helped in preventing any orgasms during my releasing of the contents. i was successful for 2 days of hard masturbation during the release of that day's enema. As i tried to catch my breath, before i put my clothes back on i would pull out one of my favorite old toys. Withdrawing from my bag my vibrating butt plug i slowly slipped it into my butt that was not free from the earlier butt plug and enema. Once in i did click the toy onto its lowest setting and leave it imbedded in my canal. As it buzzed away i put my clothes on and returned to work.
Eventually my lunch would come, which seemed like forever since i had the added distraction of my vibrating butt plug. Like i did all of last week i rushed through my lunch, even taking my set of capsules with it. Once my lunch was finished i picked up my bag and made my way back to the handicap washroom which i was feeling  very acquainted with the last 2 days of the week. While inside i was going to accomplish the culmination of many tasks my Miss assigned that now all intersected. At lunch i was already doubling up my tasks, but for Thursday and Friday i got to tripling up my tasks for lunch. With the butt plug still buzzing away inside of me, i sat on the toilet and began to pump my breasts for my timed session at the middle point of my work shift. As promised before i would also begin to masturbate as i pumped myself. My mind was all over the place , as the extra arousal from the butt plug kept my mind running wild. i would keep floating from thoughts of my Miss, to thoughts of the weekend, then try to bring my mind back to the milk production. i did find myself saying in my mind i wanted to get some milk soon for my Miss. The extra arousal made me get to the edge of my orgasm extremely quickly so i was forced to hold back hard for most of the 20 minutes of my pumping. It felt torturous, and i wondered if my Miss had this all planned, getting me to wear the vibrating butt plug for the whole day knowing it would run into my doubled up lunch tasks. Actually i know She planned it that way. i had to bite my lower lip hard, i found muffled moans escaping my lips even with all my might to prevent myself from getting way too loud, especially at work. Soon my session came to an end, and i even went over my lunch period as the masturbation, the vibrating plug and my pumping all together distracted me more than enough that i lost track of time. i did get dressed and back to work being only 5 minutes late, which i do not think anyone even noticed.
The rest of my shift went by without much more than some distraction from the plug's vibrations.  i left work a fair bit early and made it home in time to perform my end of work timed pumping session. As i did that and while i was making dinner i charged up my we-vibe. After my dinner i did go to work on my orgasm training which i had made some personal changes to so it would accelerate results. For about 10 days i have been working on getting myself to cum to my trigger tone of Beethoven's 5th Symphony while on the we-vibe's 3rd setting. For today i went and placed it on the 2nd setting and sat there on my couch concentrating on it. My goal was that once i hear the tone i theoretically should be able to cum even though the toy is set on a level which my body would not be able to cum on with that alone. My only way to find out was through how my results would go today. i let my mind concentrate hard of feeling the vibrations, trying to intensify it a bit mentally. Then not even an hour in, maybe 40 minutes i would hear the tone to my surprise. Instantly i would say "yes", as i felt the success of an orgasm achieved through my trigger tone on a lower setting on the we-vibe. With this results i am going to keep going on level 2 for a long while, then move to the 1st level and eventually after that without the we-vibe at all. Thi is the ultimate outcome to help build me to cumming on the sound and without stimulus.
All in and all my week has been filled with tasks like my Friday, with that day having all the tasks and additions fully accomplished. i did feel positive about my orgasm control training which has gone on since October. i also felt very uneasy knowing my Miss will probably up the ante for next week, and with it drawing closer to Christmas i still need to finish shopping and getting my place ready for Christmas dinners. However even with how busy i am getting and my uneasy feel, i know that my heart and determination will keep me going strong for my Miss' love and affections.

Assignment for the 3rd of December 2011

After my eventful first week back with my Miss, i was very much looking forward to my first weekend assignment since Her return. i was a little worried and nervous over how much She wanted from me. i actually thought She was going to ease Her way back into being my Domme, but knowing Her well i should have expected Her to give out such busy and event filled tasks. My Saturday started in the afternoon much like it did every other day this week. Waking from my slumber i knelt by my bed to do my prayers and thoughts to my Miss. Following that i did my usual activities in the washroom, which ended with my beginning of the day enema. After finishing with the washroom i made myself a bagel and oatmeal (which i read was good for milk production). Along with my meal came a set of my capsules i take that help produce milk, and better the quality. The rest of my morning was pretty much used to get myself all prepared to go through my busy "date" day. At that time i also went through a breast pumping, and masturbation session.
My Miss' task She gave me at the start of the week to work on was to find potential new female "play" partners so my lesbian side does not go forgotten with my recent hunger for cock. i did have 2 potential suitors that i had met (even documented in my past entries), however one of the suitors seemed to have moved on and found herself someone else. i did wind up meeting the other one as she seemed eager get more acquainted. Around 12:30 i did drive out to a coffee shop to meet my date. Lets call her "C", she was the young Asian girl i met at the mall (during my diaper training week) who gave me a very "interested" vibe. Walking into the coffee shop i saw her instantly at the corner. Walking up i greeted her with a hug and a smile. We ordered coffee and just sat there talking about random things, just using this time to get to know each other. i did find out that she was 20 and going to school to become a nurse, and she was indeed bi. We both made comments about the feeling we both gave off. i found her personality to be very perky, energetic and open. i did find myself enjoying her cute giggles. After a while i suggested we should go out for a walk around so we could talk more. i wanted to get out from the confines of the coffee shop so i could try to see how kinky she could be. i was thinking of the best way to bring it up when i just finally decided to tell her of my interests in BDSM, how i am involved in the lifestyle and my collar to my Miss. She was not as shocked as i thought, although a bit surprised. She did appreciate the openness. i even told her how the first time i met her i was actually performing a task for my Miss. We did have some moments of awkwardness where i could not judge her reactions, but after a while she started asking me about different aspects. She did not have a great understanding of what BDSM was and how it was different from bondage in general. This actually turned into quite a long topic, where we went over different aspects, i told her more of the things i liked and the things i had done. She did comment on how normal i looked, and my response was that everyone in the lifestyle is normal in a sense. Anyone could be interested in the lifestyle. Also she could have known people within the lifestyle without even knowing it as they may have hidden it extremely well.
We did finish up our walk and make it back to the coffee shop where my car was. i did offer to drive her home as i found out that she took the bus there. On our drive to her place we didn't really converse much about BDSM but more on each others' personal interests. Once at her place i did ask her if i had shocked her too badly, which she assured me not and that she would love to see me again. i know my Miss wanted me to try to fuck her, however i did not think i should have scared her too much but instead gauge her as a potential play partner. i do think she seemed open enough for it, but lacked experience or knowledge which i know i could provide. We did hug, kiss each other on the cheek and part ways until next weekend, that is if we are free.
i made my way home to get re-changed and go through my timed pumping session, which of course is now added with a masturbation session. i did try to keep my mind on the milk production but i did find that it wandered a bit to my task later in the evening. However this task did go through as usual as they have grown the past week, even with the masturbation. i had not cum all day, and even during this session i was able to resist for me Miss' wishes. i spent the next few hours preparing myself for the evening, making sure "K" was still on and deciding what to wear. With the nights being rather cold, i decided on my heels and jeans with a black revealing top. On top of that i went with a black jacket.
i drove out to meet with my tranny friend "K" and to leave my car at her place. We shared a cab to the club by around 10:30 and made our way in. i did have to say i thought "K" looked great tonight in her red dress. We wasted little time after making it in, and after checking in out coats. We went to the bar and bought 2 drinks each, finding a table to sit at and sip our drinks. We talked, and i took the time to survey out potential suitors that would fulfill my Miss' task requirements. It wasn't until after an hour of being there until i saw the perfect suitor. My Miss wished for me to find a fat girl and show her the time of her life. There she was wearing a red top, fishnets and a black skirt. i found her to be rather pretty, considering. She was there with a skinnier blonde girl who was in all black. i did hear "K" comment about her friend, so "K" and i made plans to go out to meet them on the dance floor when we saw them go out there.
It wasn't long until i saw them make their way to a corner of the dance floor, so we gave a minute before "K" and i made our way to them and began to dance with them. We were greeted warmly with a smile and a "hi". We spent some time dancing with each other and chit chatting. After a while we made our way to the bar for more drinks and floated from the bar to a table to the dance floor then repeated that a few times throughout the evening. The girl i was working on to fulfill my task with i shall call "T", and we were fairly flirty with each other, and even more so with the more alcohol consumed. What i loved most about this was that "K" was really getting flirty with "T's friend too, which i found adorable. We kept dancing and drinking the night away, until near about a half an hour from closing time.
We all left the club at the same time and was hailing cabs. "K" and i arranged that we were actually going to leave separately as i was going to leave with my new BBW friend "T". i did wish "K" the best night and wished her a wild fuck. My cab wild i did not remember too much from besides a lot of talking. i remeber finding out that she was 26, and was mostly Latina.

The ride only took about 15 minutes, but at her place we kept on drinking and talking more, and even got really close so i could sit on her lap so we could kiss a bit. After some kissing she said to level with her and with much confidence she said she found it hard to believe i would leave the club with a girl who looked like her. Especially since i look like this, which i tried to brush off. She kept saying there must have been a motive, and i eventually had to spill the beans about my Miss and the task to be with a fat girl. She did seem slightly annoyed with the task, but she responded with what i thought was an odd question. She asked if i used to have any heavier friends in high school which i responded no. Then she asked if i used to make fun of them, which i blushed and did nod. i received a "thought so", as she got up. i really thought she was going to kick me out of her place, and i grew nervous. However instead she grabbed by hair and began to pull me to her room.
She tossed me on her bed and began to pull my clothes off of me, with of course me not even resisting. Once i was naked she went to her drawer and pulled out lengths of rope to my surprise. She began to tie my arms and legs to each according bed post until i was fully immobilized. She said that i was not going to give her the time of her life, but instead she was going to take it. She stripped off her clothes and went over to straddle my face and demanded i begin to eat her out. i did not waste a second as i felt her wright press to my face and upper torso. i was actually feeling rather smothered but i kept using my mouth and tongue to perform on her. All the while i kept thinking of her questioning and how now i am eating her out. Through this time she kept talking to me, telling me i'm a slut and how the tables have turned. From being the one to torment the fat girls to now being the one who is being humiliated by one. i was blushing heavy yet i did not dare stop tongue fucking her. i did feel as if it was revenge for every more obese girl i made fun of when i was younger, which wasn't a lot, but i do remember one poor girl who i am sorry for now. i did kind of use this for reparations. After a while i did get her to orgasm, but this was just the first one. i was not allowed to stop, just to slow down. She now started a new action of slapping my pussy, over and over again, using it like a remote control. She told me to use my mouth and tongue to match her speed and strength of the slaps. As they increased in speed and strength i kept squealing and fucking her more, unable to do much more. She kept on verbally degrading me saying how i am now not even fit to tongue a fat girl like her. Its weird, most girls that are heavier like her are low on confidence, yet she was one who was very confident about herself. Did give me a feeling maybe this was not her first time, or maybe she was already in the lifestyle, or even more a Mistress already. i did not know and right now i was in no position to ask. Whenever i did begin to waver on my eating her out, she began to slap me more, and even clenching her body and legs against my head more so i had a way harder time breathing. Using that to motivate me to work harder. i think an hour to an hour and a half passed and i brought her to orgasm 4 times, with myself going through 0 orgasms. My whole body was soaked in sweat, with my face and upper torso being drenched in sweat and a mix if her juices. i swear i must have glistened in the light.
i was not done yet though, she reached back into her drawer and pulled out a giant dildo and a vibrator saying that it was about time i earned an orgasm. She took her place again at straddling my face facing my body. This time though she reached across and shoved the dildo hard into me, causing me to groan to her roughness. She began to give me hard full thrusts that hit the back of my pussy and against my cervix in every thrust. i kept groaning as she literally fucked me with this plastic toy. i tried to keep mouthing her pussy, but her fucking me with the dildo did distract me at times. When i stopped for too long i would feel her hand slap at my skin until i began again. After a while i found the feel of the vibrator against my clit which made my body go insane, yet i could not cum. i brought her to another orgasm well before i even got to the edge of my orgasm, yet it felt almost foreign for me to cum. She fucked me for i think an hour with me bringing her to 3 total orgasms until i heard my phone go off on the counter of her desk. i knew it must have been "K" checking up on me as i heard my trigger tone of Beethoven's 5th and i exploded into a huge orgasm. i shuddered and screamed as i came hard. i came so hard it actually wiped me out and knocked me out for the night as i don't remember anything after this until morning when i woke up to being tied still and being cuddled with by "T".
In the morning i was untied and we chatted slightly. i didn't even shower as i wanted to go home smelling the funk of being a slut. We traded phone numbers as i awaited "K" to come get me and take me home. During the ride i did still feel the humiliation of being with "T". i admit i was not really physically attracted to her, although i found her to be pretty. i think the most attraction i got the whole night was feeling the humiliation. However i know this was all for the love of my Miss.

Assignment for the 2nd of December 2011

From my start of the week until now i have gone through a routine i have been trying to set all through this week. Some changes were made, and some additions were added. My Friday began as i have been all week, waking up and praying by the foot of my bed. Thinking of Her, the tasks i had ahead then of my outlook with the results of all the training. After that i did make my way to the washroom so i could go through getting ready, washing and going through my first enema of the day. At the end of the week i was still very happy to be doing the enemas again, not even missing using the toilet for my #2's. Once completed all my tasks in the washroom i went on to making a breakfast of bacon and eggs, and had my pills for the day. Taking the blessed thistle, fenugreek and the marshmallow root capsules then making sure i packed the pills so i could take at work. My morning routine has not really differed much than usual besides the addition of the capsules and the re-addition of my enemas. The last thing i did before leaving for work, and putting on my clothes happen to be the biggest change to my whole morning routine. Needing to devote at least 20 minutes, preferably 30 i got out my breast pump. With the pump turned on and against my breasts, i let them work their magic before i began my other half of the task. My Miss loved my Monday report so much She decided to make my tasks doubled up. With the breast pump activated, being held with one arm, my free right hand reached down and pressed my fingers to my mound. My fingers massaging and stroking my clit and pussy. Now every time i use the breast pumps i must masturbate as per Her orders. i kept my mind on my milk production, and how it was for my Miss. Envisioning the milk production and the outcome. Hearing from some websites that my mind should be focused on the milk production mentally helps to produce better milk i did keep my mind on that, with the masturbation serving as a distraction. i felt this was a good way to keep my mind strong and what is important during this task, my Miss and the milk production. i was able to get to that edge of my orgasm within a few minutes, but i did resist the orgasm through the duration of the 20 minute pumping session. i know my Miss preferred me to only cum when i hear the tone of Beethoven's 5th. The time eventually came and i stopped without cumming. After a short rest i did pack up, get dressed and head on out to work.
At work it was all pretty smooth sailing, working my normal routine. i have gotten into a groove of being more professional at work so i could conceal my more kinky nature behind closed doors, not wanting anyone to even suspect me. Just the thought of being discovered makes me blush of embarrassment. i kind of want to be caught yet i know it would be bad and know i cannot be for my own safety. i worked like i do normally until my lunch period. Through the week i was able to work out that at lunch i am to rush through my meal so i can perform my mid shift breast pump. For Friday i munched down a quick salad with my cranberry juice then rushed to my "office" at the handicap washroom. While there i repeated my actions from before work with stripping and taking out my breast pump. However unlike the morning, i began a routine from Thursday of using my purple we-vibe while i was using the pump. With it inserted i started it and let it buzz me towards the edge of my orgasm while i had the pump sucking against my nipples. As i bit my lower lip i kept going over thoughts of producing milk for my Miss and on the production of the great quality milk to impress my Miss. Last week i was not doing any tasks and now this week i was already being overwhelmed by tasks. i found myself eager to please. i resisted cumming once more even though i reached the edge of my orgasm within 2 minutes of my pumping/ masturbation session. i did have to concentrate hard on my thoughts of lactation and  holding off the orgasm. Not to mention keeping track of time so i was not late returning from my break. i did finish up at the 15 minute mark so i had time to pack up get dressed and compose myself. i had not cum, nor had i produced any milk yet.
i did make it back to my desk on time and finished up my shift without any problems. However once my shift finished i did get into my car and start driving. i did decide for Friday to make a minor stop at a secluded parking spot to a closed store. i slipped my we vibe under my sweat pants and into me, pressing the ends against my g-spot and my clit. i turned on the we-vibe and then pulled up my shirt so i could use my pump for my after shift pumping session. i did blush a bit, knowing this was the most public i have been with my pumping, and there was minor risks of being caught. i did try to keep it out of my mind as i knew my thoughts shouldbe on the milk, and my body's production of it. This session was very much like my earlier one, with my body going to the edge of the orgasm and myself forcing it from going over. i kept there for the duration of 20 minutes, although it felt like an hour.
i did make it home intact and went through my night not doing much besides watching TV and making myself a soup and sandwich to have. As i ate i did charge up the we-vibe and text "K" with an instruction to message me within the next 2 hours (the life span of the vibe's charge), i was trying an experiment with the vibe. With it set on the 3rd setting which was the lowest setting in which the toy could get my body to orgasm. My goal was by next week i wanted to get it so i was cumming by the trigger tone on level 2, then the week after on level 1 and then after that lets hope i can cum on just the tone alone. i must have been a site sitting on my couch, legs spread with both my hands massaging my breasts. i did get the trigger tone about an hour and 40 minutes into my masturbation session and i came hard and immediately at hearing the tone showing me that at level 3 i was able to cum right on command. It did feel great to finally cum for the first and only time this day. Knowing my experiment was a success. i did hope my Miss would be proud of the results.
i was pretty exhausted and did not manage much more for the night besides one more pump/ masturbation session. At the end of it i began writing the entry for my Miss and fell asleep in the process. This post does show how my week ended, and how my routine is shaping up to be.