Assignment for the 26th of July 2011

Synopsis:
i was to detail all what i did today to earn my Miss' trust back.

Assignment:
As i woke today, i got up off the ground, where i promised to sleep as a punishment and began to remove the sleep items, my mask, cuffs and collar. Before making my way to the washroom, i did kneel and pray for a few minutes, then go over in my head what i did yesterday to hurt and disappoint my Miss. Afterwards i did make my way to the washroom. The first thing i did in the washroom was to empty the catheter bag to a plastic bottle so i may trade with the one in the refrigerator before work. Once complete i did attach the syringe attachment to push water inside my bladder. Once released i removed the catheter to clean and replace. Following the catheter i would take my shower, filling my enema bag near the end of my shower. As the shower was turned off i would press the nozzle of the enema bag to my butt. Inserting it well, i would turn the nozzle and begin to fill my bowels with warm water. i would take in the whole bag, and even fill it again, giving myself 2 liters of water. Holding it in for 10 minutes, i would repeat the enema again, giving myself another 2 liters of water and release it after 10 minutes. As my second enema was released i would re-insert my tailed plug, and re-attaching the catheter bag to the catheter.
Following the washroom i would get dressed in my grey skirt, and red top, with boots today. Next i would make myself breakfast of just eggs. i have banned myself from eating any meat until Miss gives forgiveness. i did make sure to drink lots of water for breakfast. Packing my lunch i made sure to just pack a salad, no soda, and my bottles of catheter contents filled bottles.
For work i made sure to slip my vibrating ball on low into my pussy, knowing my Miss enjoys seeing this one squirm. i would slip it in immediately before making it out of my car, not even wanting to wait. My day did go through slowly, as my grief and guilt for making my Miss feel hurt haunted me all day. i got zero pleasure from the vibrating ball, and spent the day with my head hung pretty low. i did make sure to drink my bottles of "water" every chance i got. Before lunch break by an hour i did have to empty the catheter bag, and decided to take a bottle with me so i could refill it in the handicap washroom. As another punishment task, i decided that every time i empty the catheter bag, even at work will go to a bottle so i can drink. i do not deserve to drink fresh water, as i do not deserve anything but punishments from my Miss.
My day went very slow, and every passing minute i felt sad and upset with myself. i hurt my Miss, and i know i should feel this. i was stupid, and do not deserve Her forgiveness. i kept thinking there is nothing i can do that is enough punishment, wishing i could just die. i did not smile at all today, and do not think i will be able to until my Miss does.
The day ended early for me as it was not a busy Tuesday. My drive home was just as sad as my day. i did find myself crying in my car, as i drove. My thoughts were catching up with me, i was and am worried that my Miss will never forgive me. i feel extremely bad, and keep feeling like i am not anywhere worthy of Her. Once in my door, i stripped immediately until i was naked but for the catheter bag and tailed plug. i would slip the vibrating ball from me and take it to be cleaned. At this time i would empty the catheter bag to one of the bottles in the fridge, making sure to fill that up fully. For dinner i had 2 pieces of bread, and tomato soup. Drinking the rest of the bottle of warm catheter contents that i filled at work, and did not get to finish. Once done i knelt on the ground by my computer to write my Miss. For the rest of this night i will do nothing much more that sit here, hoping my Miss has punishments for me. i am truly sorry to Her....and i love Her...