Assignments for the 11th & 12th of October 2011

Synopsis:
i have 2 tasks for the week. i am to go back to catheter training, but with it used with my dildo to make my "cock". Also i am to continue my orgasm control this week. 

Assignment:
Waking up on Tuesday, it felt very much like a Monday. After the long weekend to celebrate Thanksgiving, i was ready to start my week off. As always i start my days thinking of my Miss and sending my prayers out to Her even before leaving my bedroom. Even more so now as i am concerned for my Miss. i do not anticipate hearing much from Her this week, but i do intend to keep Her proud of me as i continue on with Her in my heart, and my spirit there with Her. i did remember a few things to do this week, and i intended to keep those small tasks close to my heart. i began the first line of business directly after my washroom routines. After my beginning of the day enema i got out my new catheter that has a longer hose. After inserting it, i did slip on my 6 inch strap on dildo, securing it around my waist. Next i secured the catheter hose to the underside of the dildo, making it now that i have my "cock" once more. i deliberately bought the longer hosed catheter for this particular purpose. i did remember my Miss recommending this during our last time we had me wearing a "cock" out. With my dildo in place i went through the rest of my morning routine without any hassle.
Arriving at work, i decided to wear a red and white dress while i could. Summer is gone, and the weather grows more cold by the day, so i choose to wear the skirt while i could, this way it could also conceal my "cock". My schedule remained the same, as did my ritual of going straight to the handicap washroom which i dubbed my "office". Once inside i immediately stood in front of the bowl and pulled my skirt up. With my cock in hand, i turned the nozzle of the catheter which was right by the end of the dildo. i stood with my hand on my cock, as the pee exited the catheter giving me the ability now to pee standing up. As before this gave me the feel of being a male, or at least peeing like one. i stood there until the last drop exited my "peehole". Once done i did slip my vibrating ball into myself, deciding to stick with just this for the entire day. With the strap on, and the catheter it would have made it too difficult to switch between that and the we-vibe. i did consider it though. i did make sure to set the ball on the lowest setting before getting fully re-dressed and slipping to work.
This did really keep my mind constantly working through the day. With the long weekend having passed, it made for a heavier Tuesday. With my mind splitting my focus between taking customer calls and fighting to keep my attention away from the pleasureful vibrations. With my mind not being able to focus 100% on either i found myself getting more aroused by the toy, and having to fight off getting past a certain point more than a few times. i also found myself stumbling my words and losing concentration with customers a few times as well. Several times i had to slow my breathing and re-focus. i think the several days off, had made me a bit lazy, or maybe it was the work load with the combined the non-stop day long pleasure but i really felt like i had to work harder than usual today to fight back the urges and want to cum. i tried a few times to think of my Miss, but it did not really help. i just wound up feeling a bit sad at missing Her. With that it began to pull my focus into 3 ways.
My day could not end fast enough, but  when it did end i wasted little time in exiting the building and driving home. i felt very drained, and even a bit emotional. i truly missed my Miss, and i have felt it. i found myself getting a bit more lazy with my posts, finding myself needing more time to write my reports. Without Her more frequently available i have found myself without as much motivation. i did promise myself to keep my orgasm control going through this week as well since i have not gotten "fresh" tasks from my Miss, but my chemistry said no. With my body already feeling drained, and my mental state not in any mood to feel pleasure i had to forgo my orgasm control until the next night. i did manage to talk to my girl kelly for a while but i was unable to stay up too late due to my own tiredness. i decided to just get washed up and to bed until the next day.


Wednesday would come and i did not miss Her any less. i still woke and prayed for my Miss and sent my best wishes to Her. Once i did complete my several minutes of thoughts and prayers to Her i instead of going to the washroom went online right away to see if my Miss had maybe messaged me. i was disappointed and felt more down. But i did feel determined to keep my tasks going knowing when She gets to reading this report She will appreciate the effort. After using my computer i went on my usual washroom routines. With the only change being that once i finished my enema, i reattached my catheter and the strap on dildo so i had my "cock" all properly positioned and worn. From there i went on to make myself a breakfast, eat and followed with getting dressed. i do not know why but today i still felt drained, and not as energetic. With that and my emotional state it did give me worries that i maybe getting sick, and with many people at my work already having been through or are fighting off the flu, it was a major possibility. The only other reasoning i could think of was that with my attachment to my Miss, and how i feel connected to Her, it maybe the feel i get with not being with Her as often or as much as i wished. i truly did not like that as it sounds very selfish of me. i felt very useless to my Miss, wishing i could be with Her to aid Her instead of being without Her at home.
i felt sluggish, and i was just not really in the mood to doing very much today. i even called into work saying i could not make my first half of work, but i did agree to go into work for after lunch, working only a half day. i spent the time from there taking a short nap, hoping it would help a bit which it did not. i wound up spending the rest of the time in my bed just thinking of my Miss more, only getting up once to go to the washroom to empty out my catheter while standing and peeing like a man. Also i like to note the entire time i was naked, since i was home i did not bother wearing anything. My mind kept thinking of my Miss. Wondering how She is fairing, and wondering what else i could do for Her. i kept having hopes i would at least get an e-mail from Her as i yearned for just Her words.
i did go to work for the second half of my regular shift. Slipping into my baggier grey sweat pants and my dark green long sleeve shirt i made my way to work. With not doing the first half of the day i did slip my vibrating butt plug into myself (set on the lowest setting) before i left for work, and even emptied my catheter at home before going to work. i thought this would make up for not having done any tasking for the first half of the day. My half shift was very much like yesterday. It went on and felt boring. My mind was still split in 3 ways between thinking of my Miss, concentrating on work and feeling the vibrations of the butt plug. i did have to keep fighting off the feelings of the vibrations from keeping my body to getting near the peak of my orgasm many times. But with work not as busy as it was on Tuesday i was able to shift my focus more often than i did on Tuesday. Work besides that remained relatively uneventful, besides my one time going to the washroom and peeing like a man.
When work ended i rushed home, not being in the mood to be around anyone there. One through my door i did strip immediately. i was still not truly in the mood to masturbate, but i felt i should tribute my Miss. i also knew i should keep my orgasm control training going for the rest of the week. i texted "K" to make sure she knew to message me within the next few hours to signal me. With the plug still in me, i turned it up to the medium setting, then got out my vibrating ball and set it to medium once inside of me. i let the two toys vibrate away in my 2 canals and let them drive me wild. Even without being truly in the mood the vibrations from both toys drove me wild enough to float back and forth around the door to my climax. With my "cock" still on i began to stroke it as if it were my real one. The time actually flew by to my surprise, and also in my favor was that "K" decided to text me after only 1 hour. This was a major relief, hearing Beethoven's 5th Symphony. Only a few seconds after hearing it i was able to let myself push past the edge and right into the spoils of my huge orgasm.
Upon the finish of my orgasm i sat around dazed and in a slightly better mood, although still missing my Miss. i did take time to speak to my girl kelly before getting too tired and headed to bed. i do hope by my next report my Miss will have sent me a message i miss Her with all my heart as i do love Her so very much.