Wednesday, 30 November 2011

Assignment for the 28th of November 2011‏

Synopsis:
i will no longer be using this "synopsis" and "assignment" format as i feel most people prefer to just read and be surprised. If you prefer this format do send me a message stating your preference and i may revert back to this method.

Assignment:
It was nice to get a message Saturday night/ Sunday morning from my Miss. She would detail out some tasks that i was to start Sunday then leading right into my Monday. Right when i awoke Sunday i went right away to my tasks. That is after kneeling by the foot of my bed and giving minutes to think of my Miss and to contemplate about the tasks. From there i did go to the washroom for my customary toilet use, and for my last "#2". As i sat on the toilet to defecate, i kept my mind working. My Miss wanted me to think about hos this was my last time being like a normal girl defecating. How it was being taken away. Thinking of how this was the last time, and that i was losing that ability. i should have missed it, but i did not. i was very glad to be rid of it, and that it is now my Miss' to own and choose what to do with. i knew i was going back to 2 enemas a day and that my butt was never going to defecate again naturally again. Yet i want this, and i felt i needed it. My mind had no notion against the enemas, or even not being able to defecate naturally.
The rest of my Sunday i didn't do anything much besides this and preparations for my big task for Monday. i stopped by the pharmacy and an herbal store to purchase a few items. At the herbal store i picked an Indian spice called fenugreek, in pill form, marshmallow root capsules blessed thistle capsules. i did my research and i found this one to be one method that got good reviews. From there i went to a pharmacy that was fairly far from where i lived to buy a breast pump i found to be comparatively cheaper than every other place i had looked through during my research of breast pumps. Having never actually been pregnant, i have never actually realized the prices  until now, which really i think will prepare me for when i do have children. Also at least i spent the fairly pricy amount now on a machine i will use again then.
i really used Sunday as my preparations day before beginning my week with tasks. Getting all the things i needed, then making my schedule of when i would be doing everything for Monday so i could fulfill all my Miss' tasks. i even got to cum once more during my training for orgasm control, only at the sound of my trigger tone Beethoven's 5th Symphony. At the very end of Sunday i did end off with my first enema in a long time. All the while i kept thinking how this day i began with using the toilet like a normal person, then ending with my butt being controlled by my Miss again. i did feel happy as i went to bed.
Monday rolled around and i awoke to performing some prayers to my Miss, then to the washroom to washup. After my shower i got to my 2nd enema since the last time i was free to use the toilet. i did enjoy it, having a smile across my face. It was more the feeling of being controlled again b y my Miss. Also i did slightly miss the routine of doing this twice a day. From there i went upon to my room to insert my tailed plug thus my butt was fully claimed by my Miss. i found this to make me really excited. i loved being fully Her's. For the rest of my morning before work i went upon my normal routine, with the only added difference is i had 3 of the fenugreek pills with my breakfast. From this day on besides my butt being claimed, i am to take 2-4 fenugreek pills, 3 times a day as they help increase/ induce lactation. i am also to accompany the fenugreek with the blessed thistle capsules. Also i had to take the marshmallow root capsule once a day. Before leaving for work i did figure i had to begin my other new routine. i sat there and used the pump on my breasts for 20 minutes, as i was to do this every 3-4 hours from now on until i begin to lactate. i read a lot on mental thinking during the span of the pumping, keeping my mind on the task of producing milk. How this was for my Miss and pleasing Her. Thinking how with my breasts going through this, and my butt plugged, my body was piece by piece controlled by my Miss. i did feel much arousal at this point, with my mind stimulated and my nipples being stimulated by the double pumps on them. i was envisioning the 2 bottles being filled by the pumps one day very soon.
Once i was done pumping i had to pack up everything, get dressed and hurry off to work. My new routine had not fully been worked out yet as i still needed to make minor tweaks to the timing. i still needed to get used to it. At work i went to check my schedule immediately, after dropping off my things. Seeing i was set at my desk for the day i went to on to performing my work. he month of inactivity, and the long rest my Miss gave my butt did make the plug feel a bit foreign, especially while i sat on my chair. However slowly through the day that feel disappeared and my body was re-introduced to the feel of it.
During my lunch break i did have to time it very well, rushing through my sandwich and drink in 10 minutes, and taking 3 more of the fenugreek pills and 3 more of the blessed thistle caps. After finishing i grabbed my bag and went to the handicapped washroom, which i had dubbed my "office" to my Miss since i have used it so much. i always loved how this name amuses  my Miss. In the washroom i had to perform 2 tasks at once, knowing i could do thisand feeling motivated to please my Miss. Taking the breast pump out i began my second session of pumping as it was just slightly over 4 hours and this was my first chance to get in some time pumping without drawing too much suspicion. Stripping naked i let the pump work its magic, as i began to work my second task assigned during this time. Reaching my hand between my legs i began to stroke my pussy and clit. As i promised Miss i would masturbate during my break at lunch, but this was before my strategic planning on Sunday. i decided on doing the double duty, using the breast pump and masturbating. i tried to keep my mind on the production of milk and how it was for my Miss. Using this as fuel for my masturbation. i still had to keep my mind on the time, not able to waste a single minute. i was really going wild, as my arousal soared high. i had to bite my lower lip to prevent myself from moaning out. The stimulation to my nipples and from my fingering my pussy were immense. It felt great, my breasts were being controlled, as were my butt and my pussy. i was at that moment 100% Her's. It did not take long for me to reach the edge of my orgasm, as i held there not letting myself pass there without the sound of Beethoven's 5th. i was almost pleading in my head that "K" would message, but knew i would not. i held out for the duration of 7-10 minutes before stopping and using 5 minutes to regain myself and finishing off my pumping session. Once i was packed up and redressed i went out and back to work.
Work could not end faster, as the last half of work was busy and felt like a dog race. i did race on home after work so i could go on with more of my routine. i know with work i am not able to work my routine to its most effective timing but i felt it gets close enough with proper timing. Right after work i went for another session with the breast pump, taking my time with that before getting my dinner ready and taking my number of pills with that meal. At the end of dinner i did go onto my orgasm control training, timing it so midway i had to get the breast pump going. i was using the Hitachi want to stroke my mound for near an hour before getting the pumping session to accompany my orgasm control training. Again my tasks were running into each other forcing me into more double duty. By the time i got my breasts pumping, i also began to fuck myself with the wand. Using  a new method i got from of all things some pornography. i had a condom wrapped around the top of it so it would save from cleanup. i even lubed it up so it would be extra slick. i found that being fucked with the Hitachi wand usually makes my orgasm huge. i have also found that the wand tends to make me squirt a bit if i fuck myself hard enough. My mind was in a haze, filled with thoughts of my breasts filling with milk, which did lead me to a kinky fantasy of being shaved bald, pregnant and being milked like a cow by my Mistress all the while being fucked by a male of Her choice. It did not take long before i got to the end of my orgasm. But now all i could do was wait. i waited right through my session supposed end time, which i just left it going, loving the multiple stimuli. i think i had the pump on and fucked myself with the wand for a full hour and a half in unison before i got the trigger tone and exploded at the first few seconds of the tone. i did pass in and out of consciousness after this, not even able to finish my blog entry until the next day, wanting it to be perfect. Reflecting my Miss, Her tasks and my training as appropriately as possible.

Sunday, 27 November 2011

Update & Assignment for the 26th of November 2011‏

Synopsis:
i have been away for a while and i am sorry, this is an update on where i have been and why i have been away. Also this is also the first entry of my return back, thank you everyone for your patience.

Assignment:
After a long while my Miss did come back to claim me, and with that my assignments also returning. i was worried and contemplating moving on, but my patience was rewarded with Her return. My Miss has been through a huge rough time, and needed some time to travel and clear Her mind. i found myself a bit lost without Her, and i know many have found my blog and my company to be lacking. However with Her back i have found myself with some renewed devotion. In the time away i have done a few small tasks , and kept with one bit of training going. After work everyday i did keep going on with my orgasm training. i would strip naked and use my Hitachi wand on my pussy until i received the message from my transsexual friend "K". The message of course was not the trigger but the ring tone of Beethoven's 5th Symphony.
i actually had began this prior to my Miss' "getaway". i could not bring myself to ending this training as i had not gotten to the desired outcome. With each day not knowing when the message would come, this pushed me to try to keep myself at a point before my orgasm that would allow me to quickly release when the tone comes. i have been working on this one for about 2 months now with the result now being that as soon as the tone hits i immediately go into my orgasm. i did think this is what my Miss had in mind with this task, although with a lot more of this i am guessing that even without the play the sound of the trigger tone would make my body fall right into an orgasm. This does excite me, as i have always wished to be planted with a orgasm trigger through hypnosis, with only my Miss knowing the trigger. This is very similar to it, although without the hypnosis, and instead using immense training. i do hope in time that i will be able to fulfill this task to its fullest potential.
The rest of my training was not as successful as my orgasm control training went. i had not gotten back to any of my enema training as my Miss was away.  After a few months of not being able to use the toilet to go "#2" it was rather different. i actually had not missed it too much, and nearing the end i preferred the enemas more than using the toilet. before my Miss went away i was actually in much anticipation to restarting it again. i do not know if it was because it made me feel as if every aspect of my life was being controlled, or maybe it was that it didn't feel as nasty as defecating naturally. Now though i do anticipate returning to this task, and am glad to do so when i get the chance. For the first long while after i stopped i did feel incomplete without it, although through time that feeling faded. Now with much thought since my Miss did ask how i feel about this i would happily do the enemas to start and end my day for the rest of my life.
The last task my Miss had me do before Her "leave" was to look in on breast pumps and on information on making myself lactate. i looked up a lot of different information online and found several good sites and articles about adoptive breastfeeding. i had not chosen a breast pump yet as their prices range drastically from $60-near $450, and i was in waiting for my Miss choice on that. i have also not began the self lactation but i have been informed that i would probably be beginning this as soon as the beginning of the coming week. i do feel a bit nervous, yet excited as i have actually thought of this before my Miss brought it up. i am uncertain about how this task will go, but like all my Miss' tasks i will always give my 100% and my strongest effort. i will detail what comes of this as i feel positive about it. My Miss also said that we maybe selling some of what i produce which i am unsure if that was a joke or if She was serious about it. For some reason i do think i will be using that milk in some of my other training, it is just a feeling.
As for my relationships wise i have continued to see both my tranny friend "K" and my black friend "J" through the last few weeks while my Miss has been away. With "K" we've pretty much been like a couple, having dates like others. Like going to a movie, or sitting in and watching some TV. Although we have had quite a lot of sex, pretty much after, during and even before some dates. i have kept the orgasm training going on right through anytime we've been having sex, refusing to cum until i have heard the trigger tone, and not a moment before. For the first while i did keep thinking it was for my Miss, although as the weeks went by i kept just doing so more out of habit, and for the sense of seeing my task through. A usual night for us would be like when i get off work, she would stop by so we could share a quick bite, then watch some television before we went to my bedroom to fuck. We would then fuck until she was close to cumming. At that point she would use my phone to play Beethoven's 5th Symphony so i would cum instantly, which was accompanied by her cumming inside of me, on top of me, or with me swallowing her cum. We have progressed in our relationship slightly in the sense now we do stay more at each others' places after fucking for a great portion of the night. It only made sense, as our comfort levels have grown, and with as much time as we've spent together. We've even left some clothes at each others' places in case we've needed it, and for the convenience. i have seen "K" a little bit more than "J", as i think its that we get along like girlfriends, and we do have a lot in common.
With "J" our relationship is purely sexual, as we really only see to have sex. We do things together outside of sex, but more times or not we do just meet to fuck. We even had a game we've been doing which was trying to fuck in every room in my place, and every inch of my place, from the hallway, to the washroom and even against my front door (inside). Besides trying to fuck everywhere, he's also trying to fuck all 3 of my holes in each of these locations. During the one light snow fall this year we even fucked outside in the back alley while i was bent over a snow covered trashcan. It was very late, and we both went outside, with me in just an oversized t-shirt. Once back there he unzipped his pants and took my shirt off. i was freezing, but he assured me he would fuck me warm as he bent me over the trashcan and fucked me right away. We didn't take very long, maybe 10 minutes, and it was very intense concentrated fucking. He had to shove my own shirt in my mouth as a gag, being careful not to wake up my neighbors. We have discussed what we would do once we fucked in every place in my home, that we would move on to fucking in every inch of his place, and seeing what else we could do after we accomplished that.
i do think i know "J" less than i know "K" as "J" is less open about things. i just found out recently that he was married before and even has a son. This would explain why i have felt more close to "K", however i do feel i am hugely sexually attracted to being fucked by "J", and even the things he has done to me. Some being very kinky, like fucking his brother and girlfriend, or even being bound and fucked by a number of unknown people in the past. i have compared the 2 of them, and at times i have even tried to pick which one of them i would choose ahead of the other with very mixed results. i would sway one way then the other, only to ultimately stay in the middle.
i have felt as if i had been having a lot of sex recently with the 2 of them as a form of escape from missing my Miss. i found it funny how before my Miss i had not been with a male in many years, and was virtually a lesbian. Now i cannot go a few days without being fucked by a cock. i have thought about having a relationship like my friend "A" and her 2 boyfriends, but with "K" and "J". However i have felt that both of them have it quite set in having a more sexual relationship with me. With "K" possibly being the more likely of the 2 of them that would be in a relationship. i am in no real rush, and am content with a slow "see where it goes" pace we all are at. i do not really want either of them to stop fucking me, as i love their contrasting styles. "K" is gentle, but can get going very well. Her endurance is amazing, and she seems to be extremely caring. "J" on the other hand is a lot more rough and tends to toss me around quite a bit. i do think that comes with the territory of being that much bigger than me, i mean he is about 6'2" or 3 which makes him a foot or so taller than me. i have dreamed of being with them both everyday, but i do think i should keep them separate so i could enjoy their different feels. i have made sure they each know that we are not exclusive, and that my loyalties and love are only for my Miss.
With my Miss back i do guarantee that i will be making more posts on my blog, as i will online more now that i am out of my depressive "funk". i do apologize to everyone who cares for me, and who follow my blog. i will make sure my posts have plenty of details of each task my Miss makes me perform, and try to accomplish each task to the fullest of my abilities. Also to those i hurt in my absence i am deeply sorry. To my Miss i am sorry i doubted Her return, and even thought hard of moving on and finding a new Mistress. i do love Her greatly, and hope to never lose Her again <3

Thursday, 3 November 2011

Assignment for the 30th of October 2011

Synopsis:
This is just a report of my events from the 30th.

Assignment:
Through last week i did not really get much done. With my Miss resting and relaxing, i spent the week just working further on my orgasm control, and some slight research for my Miss. My orgasm control went as it did the past 2 weeks. At home, once i was off work, i masturbated with my Hitachi wand and my we-vibe until i received the trigger from "K". Each day was a different time. Each time i was unsuspecting of when the call would be made. By now i don't think i can even cum without hearing the trigger. When i hear the song i get shivers, knowing this is the kind of results my Miss wished for. As for the research, i looked into breast pumps, trying to find good prices for them. i also looked into ways i could make myself lactate without being pregnant and while on the pill. i did succeed in finding the information in which i sent to my Miss for Her to decide out my course of action.
With my week being rather non-eventful, i was planning to do a small date for Saturday so i would have something nice to write about. However my plans did go out the window and i wound up at home doing my laundry on a Saturday night. i did manage to see a friend and go for a short drive. Although nothing too sexy or wild. Also yes i know it was just the Halloween weekend but i did not really wish to do much as i have been rather exhausted, and mentally drained without my Miss' guidance. Also i did not have enough creative juices to make a costume for this year.
With Sunday i knew i could not stay in for another night. i decided to do something for the night, even though it may have been small. i worked from the afternoon making calls to see who was free and who had plans. It wasn't until i called "E" my female friend with short blonde hair said if i was bored i should go over to have dinner with her. She was very insistent and did not accept my answer until she received a "yes".
With my company now set i choose my outfit for the night, going with blue jeans, boots, a black sleeveless top with a black jacket since it is cold now at nights. One i was dressed and my makeup was done, i made my way to her place. She greeted me at the door wearing this beautiful red dress. She greeted me with a hug then led me into her place to show me around. After that we talked, and watched some TV before having dinner. She made us some delicious creamy chicken alfredo, with some prawns and salad. i really thought she outdid herself. i felt full, and yet she still had some dessert. She brought out one giant chocolate brownie, with whipping cream and a scoop of vanilla ice cream. It was heavenly, and she definitely remembered me saying i had a huge weakness to chocolate on our first (and only date so far). We shared one giant warm brownie between us, eating slowly with our eyes looking into each others'. i noted looking into her eyes, admiring their gorgeous blue color.
At the end of dessert, we spent some time relaxing on the couch. Even some time snuggled together on her balcony sharing a joint between us. It was funny as i never planned for this, but she thought it would be a great idea. She said she liked to smoke every once in a while, and with us both living in BC, it is more than acceptable. We smoked, and stayed close, with a pink blanket around us. We sat on her big women balcony chair, which was more than big enough for us to spoon on. We held, and i know i looked back to see her eyes squint more as we smoked more. We both got more giggly by the end of this joint. We did make our way back inside to go and watch some more TV, finding it a lot more amusing now.
We paid less and less attention to the television and more to each other, as our hands started to roam. i found my hands stroking her sides along to her tummy, while her hands made their way under my top, stroking my bare flesh. After a while our attention was not even on the television but instead on each other, kissing and removing articles of clothes off each other. i was pretty much nude except for my stockings, and "E" was definitely nude. i did love to look at her long naked legs. They just seemed to go for miles. Slowly we made our way to her bed where there was more room for us to operate. She had me pinned underneath her as she kissed me aggressively. i could tell without a single word spoken that she was wanting to be in control tonight, which did not bother me. Even though she needed to say nothing, she did whisper to me how she was going to carry this, which i attributed also to her being silly from the marijuana.
We made our into the desired position she wanted us in. i was sitting in a scissor type of position with her. She had my foot and was kissing and suckling on each of my toes. She kept urging me to do the same to her foot until i caved in and decided to do so. i have never really had a thing for feet, but i was in the moment and decided to go with it. It felt very foreign to me, yet i did not want to disappoint. Very much this is what i would do for my Miss, in bucking up and still doing the task no matter how much i don't like it. i could tell from her body's reactions and her constant moans that this was really getting her hot. For myself i was getting hot off of the way her body felt to mine, being entwined in this scissor position. Our bodies slowly slid back  from each other a bit, with myself still following her lead. Her foot found its way to resting on top of my mound, with my foot on hers'. Both our feet moist from each other suckling on it. We worked each others' feet into the others' mound. Rubbing in circles, slowly to start. The pressure and speed picked up gradually. i felt myself getting extremely wet as i groaned out wildly like her. after a while i felt her cum, and not long after i felt an orgasm. The first orgasm i had all week without being set off by my trigger song.
Even after the orgasm we were not finished yet. her hands found their way around my ankle, guiding my food to her mound. Her foot was aiming itself to my mound as well as i was guessing what was going to happen. My guess was right as i felt her foot pressing into my pussy, with her toes aimed in first. i felt my foot doing the exact same to her pussy ay the same time. i did get the slight feeling that i was being forced into this, yet it was more careful guiding. i felt our feet sliding into each other, using the juices from the last orgasm as lube. This felt odd to me as i have never had a foot in me before. i have done hands, toys, penises of all shapes and sizes, yet a foot was new to me. We were both extremely horny, and wet, wasting little time. Unlike before we did not start slow, but instead at a moderate pace, building up a lot more. Both of us looking very lustful. i panted like an animal, wanting more, feeling my body shake and shudder to being fucked by a foot. Orgasm after orgasm hit until we both laid there in a soaked mess. i laid there in a heap, forgetting when it ended or started. i was a bit lost with my brain feeling like mush. The last thing i remembered was laying there, and "E" coming up with a double sided dildo, working both of us over until i believe i climaxed so much i passed out. i woke up in the morning both of us under the blankets, sticky and a mess. We smelled like stagnant sex, yet it was all worth it.