Thursday, 30 June 2011
Thoughts for the 30th of June 2011
Just thought i'd leave a thought today, my Mistress is amazing and SO thoughtful. Seriously She made me cry with all Her compliments, and i love Her immensely. i'd like to thank Her for everything. <3
Assignment for 29th of June 2011
Synopsis:
i went to visit a friend for a few hours, and my Miss said i must go wearing my vibrating butt plug. Also i was to fill my vaginal canal with toothpaste, and if my friend mentioned the smell i would tell her my canal was filled with the toothpaste. When i got home i was to give myself 4 enemas, each for 30 minutes. The first one a warm one, following 3 other cold water enemas.
Assignment:
i have just completed the full task and am now reporting back to You with my full detailed report. When we left on msn i immediately took the plug to the washroom with me and began preparations. i pushed a fair amount of toothpaste into my canal, making sure it reached in deep, then proceeded to put the vibrating plug into myself. i then got dressed, without my panties and went over to my friend's place. i was worried as You instructed if she smelled any of the mint i would have to tell her. After telling her that i know i would have to field a billion questions from her. During the entire visit my friend did not comment on any minty smells coming from me. i think a lot had to do with all the baking we did. We baked 3 different batches of cookies lol
After i got home i did message You and right after i gave myself 2 full enema bags (the bag is 1 liter) full of warm soapy water. i knelt in the bathtub naked and attached the bag to a towel hook to perform this task, then i plugged myself with my other butt plug. This felt really weird for a bit as i have not performed an enema on myself for a Domme before. i felt full and warm, also i felt rather turned on. i know i blushed at first from being so full, naked and turned on. i did come back to my room and looked at Your profile and thought much of You. i kept thinking through my head to do this right, i want to make You proud. i find myself seeking Your approval and wanting to please You badly. During the 30 minutes i did see Your message and i apologize profusely for my misread.
After the 30 minutes ended i expelled the contents of my bowels to the toilet, then set up the enema bag once again for my second round. This time as instructed i did use cold soapy water. i knelt once more and gave myself the enemas. i shivered bad at the feel of the cold water entering me, it made me feel very very cold. i tried to do more this time that the full 2 bags and got about another 1/4 bag into me, before i plugged up. i felt very much like the first time but this time more cold. This is the first time i have ever taken a cold enema, usually i reserve those for subs lol. i did look at myself in the mirror at the washroom for a good 10 minutes, seeing how my tummy was a bit distended. i could feel my stomach stretched to the water inside of me. i stayed in the washroom for most of the 30 minutes, all but a few when i ran back to my room to get my pink collar and also to admire Your pics once more lol. i don't know why but i just wanted to wear the collar while i was doing this, it just kind of felt right. i don't know how to explain it.
For my 3rd round after i expelled the enema, i knelt once more in the tub, naked except for the collar. i tried very hard to get more liquid into me and did achieve about 2 and a half bags into me. By this time my tummy rumbled a lot and i felt very bloated. i was breathing harder than before and i think i was at my fullest limit, or at least the build up limit from the multiple enemas. i was a little worried as i know i still had a lot longer and another round as well. What really helped me get through more was to keep thinking of You, and doing this to impress You.
For the last round of enemas i did as before. i filled myself with the 2 bags i knew i could take and for the 3rd bag, i filled it full and decided i would take as much as i can before i could barely breathe. i got just over the half way of the bag, so slightly more than the last round. As before i plugged in, and felt the water swish inside of me. Seeing myself in the mirror i thought that i gave the appearance of someone who was pregnant. i did begin to enjoy the full feeling, although not the cold enema as it really makes You cold to the core. By this round i was not really as embarrassed for doing it as more intrigued how much i could take, also i was motivated to perform this task to Your satisfaction.
i do hope this is good for You Miss Lindy. *kneels and bows my head to You* Is there more i can do for you or shall i wait for my next assignment Miss ?
i went to visit a friend for a few hours, and my Miss said i must go wearing my vibrating butt plug. Also i was to fill my vaginal canal with toothpaste, and if my friend mentioned the smell i would tell her my canal was filled with the toothpaste. When i got home i was to give myself 4 enemas, each for 30 minutes. The first one a warm one, following 3 other cold water enemas.
Assignment:
i have just completed the full task and am now reporting back to You with my full detailed report. When we left on msn i immediately took the plug to the washroom with me and began preparations. i pushed a fair amount of toothpaste into my canal, making sure it reached in deep, then proceeded to put the vibrating plug into myself. i then got dressed, without my panties and went over to my friend's place. i was worried as You instructed if she smelled any of the mint i would have to tell her. After telling her that i know i would have to field a billion questions from her. During the entire visit my friend did not comment on any minty smells coming from me. i think a lot had to do with all the baking we did. We baked 3 different batches of cookies lol
After i got home i did message You and right after i gave myself 2 full enema bags (the bag is 1 liter) full of warm soapy water. i knelt in the bathtub naked and attached the bag to a towel hook to perform this task, then i plugged myself with my other butt plug. This felt really weird for a bit as i have not performed an enema on myself for a Domme before. i felt full and warm, also i felt rather turned on. i know i blushed at first from being so full, naked and turned on. i did come back to my room and looked at Your profile and thought much of You. i kept thinking through my head to do this right, i want to make You proud. i find myself seeking Your approval and wanting to please You badly. During the 30 minutes i did see Your message and i apologize profusely for my misread.
After the 30 minutes ended i expelled the contents of my bowels to the toilet, then set up the enema bag once again for my second round. This time as instructed i did use cold soapy water. i knelt once more and gave myself the enemas. i shivered bad at the feel of the cold water entering me, it made me feel very very cold. i tried to do more this time that the full 2 bags and got about another 1/4 bag into me, before i plugged up. i felt very much like the first time but this time more cold. This is the first time i have ever taken a cold enema, usually i reserve those for subs lol. i did look at myself in the mirror at the washroom for a good 10 minutes, seeing how my tummy was a bit distended. i could feel my stomach stretched to the water inside of me. i stayed in the washroom for most of the 30 minutes, all but a few when i ran back to my room to get my pink collar and also to admire Your pics once more lol. i don't know why but i just wanted to wear the collar while i was doing this, it just kind of felt right. i don't know how to explain it.
For my 3rd round after i expelled the enema, i knelt once more in the tub, naked except for the collar. i tried very hard to get more liquid into me and did achieve about 2 and a half bags into me. By this time my tummy rumbled a lot and i felt very bloated. i was breathing harder than before and i think i was at my fullest limit, or at least the build up limit from the multiple enemas. i was a little worried as i know i still had a lot longer and another round as well. What really helped me get through more was to keep thinking of You, and doing this to impress You.
For the last round of enemas i did as before. i filled myself with the 2 bags i knew i could take and for the 3rd bag, i filled it full and decided i would take as much as i can before i could barely breathe. i got just over the half way of the bag, so slightly more than the last round. As before i plugged in, and felt the water swish inside of me. Seeing myself in the mirror i thought that i gave the appearance of someone who was pregnant. i did begin to enjoy the full feeling, although not the cold enema as it really makes You cold to the core. By this round i was not really as embarrassed for doing it as more intrigued how much i could take, also i was motivated to perform this task to Your satisfaction.
i do hope this is good for You Miss Lindy. *kneels and bows my head to You* Is there more i can do for you or shall i wait for my next assignment Miss ?
Assignment for 28th of June 2011
Synopsis:
i was given a freehand writing assignment
Assignment:
i guess i shall freehand a little about some of my fantasies, and hopes with being a submissive.
Miss already knows how i wish to have my hair and eye brows shaved off. i do wish You choose to do it in an embarrassing fashion for me. When i did this to a sub i pinned her to a sybian, forcing her to orgasm right through her humiliation. i know Miss will find Her own way to do this and i know it will be amazing. Oooo maybe before i get shaved, You could shave a mohawk into my head, or a pixie cut so Miss can see me in a few different styles. i have kind of wanted to get a pixie cut...then i could dress as tomboyish as possible. i can bind my breasts with the cling film, then wear a strap on, and dress as much like a boy as possible. Then go to the clubs dressed like a boi lol.
Another one of my fantasies is to be a breeder girl for my Miss. To be made to lay there, masked, gagged, blindfolded, and ear plugged. Bound so i cannot move or see who is there. Then have a group of males selected by Miss, each come up to use me, and cum inside of. This way i will not be sure who the people are and even less of a clue who the father will be. Then be forced to go through with the whole pregnancy to produce Miss with the You wish.
My hopes are to be able to become Your property. To strip to naked, except my collar every time i speak to You online. i have never been anyone's submissive before, let alone someone's personal slut. Nor have i ever had to go through assignments to prove my worth and beat out competition. i keep feeling compelled to working as hard as i can, to pass onto the next level and hopefully becoming Miss'.i do believe i am enjoying the feel of acceptance, and enjoying the feel of pride i get for making You happy. This makes me want to please You even more in hopes You will keep me. My mind and body are becoming Your's, i am loving the humiliation You present, my mind always has images of You flash through, and when i think of being a serving the only thing i can see is serving, knelt at Your feet.
i was given a freehand writing assignment
Assignment:
i guess i shall freehand a little about some of my fantasies, and hopes with being a submissive.
Miss already knows how i wish to have my hair and eye brows shaved off. i do wish You choose to do it in an embarrassing fashion for me. When i did this to a sub i pinned her to a sybian, forcing her to orgasm right through her humiliation. i know Miss will find Her own way to do this and i know it will be amazing. Oooo maybe before i get shaved, You could shave a mohawk into my head, or a pixie cut so Miss can see me in a few different styles. i have kind of wanted to get a pixie cut...then i could dress as tomboyish as possible. i can bind my breasts with the cling film, then wear a strap on, and dress as much like a boy as possible. Then go to the clubs dressed like a boi lol.
Another one of my fantasies is to be a breeder girl for my Miss. To be made to lay there, masked, gagged, blindfolded, and ear plugged. Bound so i cannot move or see who is there. Then have a group of males selected by Miss, each come up to use me, and cum inside of. This way i will not be sure who the people are and even less of a clue who the father will be. Then be forced to go through with the whole pregnancy to produce Miss with the You wish.
My hopes are to be able to become Your property. To strip to naked, except my collar every time i speak to You online. i have never been anyone's submissive before, let alone someone's personal slut. Nor have i ever had to go through assignments to prove my worth and beat out competition. i keep feeling compelled to working as hard as i can, to pass onto the next level and hopefully becoming Miss'.i do believe i am enjoying the feel of acceptance, and enjoying the feel of pride i get for making You happy. This makes me want to please You even more in hopes You will keep me. My mind and body are becoming Your's, i am loving the humiliation You present, my mind always has images of You flash through, and when i think of being a serving the only thing i can see is serving, knelt at Your feet.
Assignment for 27th of June 2011 (2nd assignment)
Synopsis:
i was to give myself 20 minutes of fisting to my butt, using only the toothpaste as lube.
Assignment:
i have just finished cleaning up after my 20 minute fisting session with the toothpaste as my lube. i stripped out of my nighty and knelt naked in the washroom with the same travel tube of toothpaste i had with me all trip. i knelt in a position where the side of my face, my chest and my knees were touching the floor, with my butt high in the air, also my hands free so i can perform the fisting. i first applied the toothpaste to 2 fingers and pushed it to my anal canal to rub the toothpaste all over. i kept doing that for a few times before i slip 3 fingers and eventually 4. After i got 4 into my butt i slid them out and applied toothpaste to all over my whole hand, then take note of the time. Then i proceeded to fist myself from slow to a steady fist. i kept it at a medium pacing as i did not want to go too high or heavy, knowing i can't and won't cum. i was thinking of You the entire time, and enjoying the feel of following Your instructions. i did get to the edge of my orgasm but never over into it a few times. Whenever i did i concentrated more on my breathing and holding it back with every part of me i could. Once the time of 20 minutes of fisting had come i stopped cleaned up and came here to type this. My butt is feeling more used than its been since that sub i let Domme me. i thank You Miss for this assignment and hope You enjoy this report. i will have the other report for You when i get home. *bows to You*
i was to give myself 20 minutes of fisting to my butt, using only the toothpaste as lube.
Assignment:
i have just finished cleaning up after my 20 minute fisting session with the toothpaste as my lube. i stripped out of my nighty and knelt naked in the washroom with the same travel tube of toothpaste i had with me all trip. i knelt in a position where the side of my face, my chest and my knees were touching the floor, with my butt high in the air, also my hands free so i can perform the fisting. i first applied the toothpaste to 2 fingers and pushed it to my anal canal to rub the toothpaste all over. i kept doing that for a few times before i slip 3 fingers and eventually 4. After i got 4 into my butt i slid them out and applied toothpaste to all over my whole hand, then take note of the time. Then i proceeded to fist myself from slow to a steady fist. i kept it at a medium pacing as i did not want to go too high or heavy, knowing i can't and won't cum. i was thinking of You the entire time, and enjoying the feel of following Your instructions. i did get to the edge of my orgasm but never over into it a few times. Whenever i did i concentrated more on my breathing and holding it back with every part of me i could. Once the time of 20 minutes of fisting had come i stopped cleaned up and came here to type this. My butt is feeling more used than its been since that sub i let Domme me. i thank You Miss for this assignment and hope You enjoy this report. i will have the other report for You when i get home. *bows to You*
Assignment for 27th of June 2011
Synopsis: i failed the cling film part of my last assignment and this one was for amends. i was to go to work with my breasts bound by cling film, wear a skirt, and no panties. i was to discreetly touch myself at work in front of my colleagues whenever i could. At 8:30 i was to go to the washroom and masturbate myself to an orgasm. After work i was to go home and use my largest vibrator on myself for 30 minutes, i was allowed to cum as much as i can, but not allowed to stop for the 30 minutes.
Assignment:
i have just finished the assigned task. i have just used my 8 inch vibrator for the last 30 minutes and am now detailing my events of today.
i wore the cling film bound tight around my chest today so it bound my tits. On top i wore a white top and a black skirt as i have said to You earlier. Also i wore no panties as instructed.
Today's shift was a split, as i worked at first the front retail desk, and backroom, then the 2nd half of the shift i worked at my desk doing calls. i started at 3:00 pm today and worked the front desk until 6:30 pm. During this time i fielded customers and in between i made calls to customers regarding their shipments. i tried to sneak a few seconds of stroking in front of the retail desk every free moment when there was no customers. When there was customers i would push the desk right to my waist and sneak my left hand underneath to stroke myself. i felt VERY humiliated and i think i was blushing a lotttt. When i was in the back in the storeroom to make calls, i propped my leg up on the shelving unit to stroke myself for a few minutes as well. The door to the storeroom was open the whole time as i am not allowed to close it, so i can still see and hear customers.
At 6:30 pm was my break and i took that opportunity to perform my assigned "2:30" masturbation in the washroom. i went to the first stall of the washroom and i stripped naked, except for the cling film. Sitting on the toilet i fingered myself for about 10 minutes thinking of You and the power You possess over me before i orgasmed. (BTW Thank You Miss Lindy !!)
i spent the last half of my shift from 7-10:30 behind a desk making calls, nothing too eventful. i made sure every call i made i sneaked a small few seconds of stroking myself. i did not orgasm at all through any of this, nor have i orgasmed since You have said, except for the one assigned one. Every time i touched myself i whispered Your name to myself and thought some of You when i could. i do believe i touched myself once every 20 minutes or so.
After 10:30 i drove home immediately. Once home i stripped naked except for the cling film and i knelt in front of my bed with my 8 inch vibrator. Like always i emptied my mind and kept my mind on images of You, and You assigning me demeaning things. i thought of You demeaning, degrading and humiliating me. Using me to Your every likings. Within the 30 minutes i came about 4 times, each time i came i screamed out "Thank You Miss Lindy" although i know You cannot hear it. After my time ended i came here immediately to write this. Thank You Miss Lindy i do hope this is good for You *bows my head* Now i will get to a shower :-)
Assignment:
i have just finished the assigned task. i have just used my 8 inch vibrator for the last 30 minutes and am now detailing my events of today.
i wore the cling film bound tight around my chest today so it bound my tits. On top i wore a white top and a black skirt as i have said to You earlier. Also i wore no panties as instructed.
Today's shift was a split, as i worked at first the front retail desk, and backroom, then the 2nd half of the shift i worked at my desk doing calls. i started at 3:00 pm today and worked the front desk until 6:30 pm. During this time i fielded customers and in between i made calls to customers regarding their shipments. i tried to sneak a few seconds of stroking in front of the retail desk every free moment when there was no customers. When there was customers i would push the desk right to my waist and sneak my left hand underneath to stroke myself. i felt VERY humiliated and i think i was blushing a lotttt. When i was in the back in the storeroom to make calls, i propped my leg up on the shelving unit to stroke myself for a few minutes as well. The door to the storeroom was open the whole time as i am not allowed to close it, so i can still see and hear customers.
At 6:30 pm was my break and i took that opportunity to perform my assigned "2:30" masturbation in the washroom. i went to the first stall of the washroom and i stripped naked, except for the cling film. Sitting on the toilet i fingered myself for about 10 minutes thinking of You and the power You possess over me before i orgasmed. (BTW Thank You Miss Lindy !!)
i spent the last half of my shift from 7-10:30 behind a desk making calls, nothing too eventful. i made sure every call i made i sneaked a small few seconds of stroking myself. i did not orgasm at all through any of this, nor have i orgasmed since You have said, except for the one assigned one. Every time i touched myself i whispered Your name to myself and thought some of You when i could. i do believe i touched myself once every 20 minutes or so.
After 10:30 i drove home immediately. Once home i stripped naked except for the cling film and i knelt in front of my bed with my 8 inch vibrator. Like always i emptied my mind and kept my mind on images of You, and You assigning me demeaning things. i thought of You demeaning, degrading and humiliating me. Using me to Your every likings. Within the 30 minutes i came about 4 times, each time i came i screamed out "Thank You Miss Lindy" although i know You cannot hear it. After my time ended i came here immediately to write this. Thank You Miss Lindy i do hope this is good for You *bows my head* Now i will get to a shower :-)
Assignment for 24th - 26th of June 2011
Synopsis:
i went away to a cabin for the weekend, and was assigned tasks to take with me as i was away from my Miss. i was to have my vibrating butt plug inserted to me as soon as i left for my trip. i had to keep it on low the entire time, only removing it to swim or use the washroom. i was to also bring cling film and use it to bind my breasts whenever i wore clothes that covered my breasts. Lastly i was to masturbate for 5 minutes every 2 hours for my Miss, and while i did turn the butt plug up in speed. i was not allowed to cum, and at the end of the 5 minutes i was to smear toothpaste all over my mound, canal and clit.
Assignment:
i have done the entire assignment as instructed. Right before i left my house i did place the vibrating butt plug in on its lowest setting. After that i masturbated for 5 minutes, with the plug turned up to medium and applied the toothpaste solution as instructed. After that i did message You when i left at 1 pm.
First thing i did after i had messaged You i went to Safeway to get a few packages of batteries, that cling wrap You requested, and i bought 2 travel tubes of toothpaste so i could keep in my purse with me. After safeway i had to go pickup my friends, get my tires topped off with air then get gas. We did stop off for some sandwiches at the nearby Bread Garden right before we embarked on our trip. Before i left the Bread Garden i did use their washroom, which was a one person one that had a lock. While in there i did masturbate for the 5 minutes while thinking of You. i kept thinking of being Your's and scanning through Your pictures in my head as i knelt on the washroom floor, naked with my clothes sitting on the counter, and with my thighs parted. After about the 5 minutes i applied some water with the toothpaste all over my mound, clit and in my canal.
The driving itself took about 4 and a half hours and we made it to Kelowna, and to our cabin by 7:30 pm. Once we got into our cabin and moved our gear in, plus set up our bedding situation i made my way to the washroom. i hope this pleased Miss but i decided since i did not masturbate for You for over 4 hours that i would dedicate 15 minutes to You in the washroom without cumming, the whole time i was kneeled with the plug on medium, naked with my thighs parted, fingering. By the end of this session i was weak kneed and i swear Your image dominated my mind.
After our short break we went get dinner at the local Keg. i had gotten a baseball cut steak, vegetables and garlic mashed potatoes. Along with my dinner i got a pair of run and cokes. Following dinner we walked around to try to see what Kelowna had to offer and where things were located. We eventually found our way to an Irish bar where we stopped to sit and enjoy a few drinks. During our stop i did make my way to the washroom where i used a stall to masturbate and think of You. i had to sit naked on the seat and masturbate with the plug set to medium. i could not get the toothpaste applied here as the washroom was busier and i do apologize.
After this pub we went back to our rooms where i washed up, masturbated once more for You and this time apply the toothpaste before i went to bed.
i know while i slept You were a part of my dreams. The only part i remembered was that You were all dressed hip and trendy, and not much like a domme, and You had me dressed like a prostitute with very high heels and i was being paraded around Your friends by a leash. That is the only part i remembered when i woke up. As i woke up the 2nd day i went to the washroom to shower, change the batteries to the plug so they had full power for the new day. As i reinserted the plug after my shower, i masturbated for the first time this day. As instructed i did set it to high as i fingered. As i promised i did not cum. After getting dressed we made our way to the market to pickup makings for breakfast, then back to the cabin to make breakfast, eat breakfast and clean up. After the cleanup we lounged around the deck enjoying some on the sun. During this time i did make my way to the washroom to perform my timely fingering with the plug to high.
i sat in the sun a bit more before i went to the pool. i did go back to the washroom to remove the plug, then reported to the pool right away. For the next while we spent time in the pool and hot tubs. As it got a bit later we left the pool, i went to get changed and re-insert the plug. While i re-inserted it, i did masturbate once again as it was coming close to the time.
Following the pool and the sun i did take a nap with the plug on before we went to the Memphis blues for dinner. After dinner we went back to the cabin to change into more club friendly attire. i also used this time to have another session in the washroom. By about this time yesterday my mind and body have been going crazy, having to hold back my orgasms, my mind was overflowing with You, every thought was of You.
We went to the closest night club to us which seemed like the most happening night club in Kelowna. It was called Sapphire and had a huge lineup out front. i was able to get in free and pretty fast with my friends.We spent the next 4 hours in the club drinking and dancing, and don't worry once more Miss i did go the washroom twice while at Sapphire, and twice i did not cum. i also could not do the toothpaste application due to it being too busy in the club washroom.
Following the club we went back to our cabin where we drank until we fell asleep lol. In that time i did manage to masturbate once more before i washed up for bed. This one particular time i masturbated and think of You and reflect on every time i masturbated during this weekend. This one session wound up going from 10-15 minutes as i had lost track thinking of you sooo much. Unlike the times at the club i was able this time to apply the toothpaste, water mixture all over my mound, clit and canal before i slept.
In the morning (that was earlier today) i woke up and exactly like the day before i woke, showered, change the batteries to the plug, masturbated with the plug on the highest setting while thinking of You, then applying more of the toothpaste. We did not get up to much more besides this, having breakfast together and a small walk before we left the cabin and began to drive home. i drove for 4-5 hours after that driving back to Vancouver, then driving my friends home. As soon as i gotten home i unpacked, washed and fingered one last time (this time for 15 minutes) to make up all the times i could not masturbate for since i was driving. Right after this session, including my last application of the toothpaste i came back here to write You my loving Miss Lindy.
i never did get to using the cling wrap for the 2nd part of Your assignment. For the days of the entire trip all i wore was bikinis or bikini tops and short shorts. For the night club i did wear a relatively revealing short dress that did not cover my breasts. i intentionally wore outfits that did not cover my breasts as the weather permitted such, and i did not want to disappoint You. i did bring the cling wrap home and will wear it for You another time. i am sorry i did not use it at all, bit i do promise i did not cover my breasts or wear things that would.
Overall the entire trip made me VERY horny for You, the first while i had the vibrating butt plug in i was not used to having it for soo long. My mind and body besides having been on edge all weekend left me feeling rather tired and week. Also i do believe i have Your image emotionally and physically embedded into my brain now Miss. i do thank You for the 3 part assignment and i do hope i have completed it to Your satisfaction. i did try hard to write a lot of detail on this assignment for You, however i am feeling very tired from the many hours of driving this weekend. If i have missed anything out Miss or You have more details of anything, please do say and i will respond with an answer.
i went away to a cabin for the weekend, and was assigned tasks to take with me as i was away from my Miss. i was to have my vibrating butt plug inserted to me as soon as i left for my trip. i had to keep it on low the entire time, only removing it to swim or use the washroom. i was to also bring cling film and use it to bind my breasts whenever i wore clothes that covered my breasts. Lastly i was to masturbate for 5 minutes every 2 hours for my Miss, and while i did turn the butt plug up in speed. i was not allowed to cum, and at the end of the 5 minutes i was to smear toothpaste all over my mound, canal and clit.
Assignment:
i have done the entire assignment as instructed. Right before i left my house i did place the vibrating butt plug in on its lowest setting. After that i masturbated for 5 minutes, with the plug turned up to medium and applied the toothpaste solution as instructed. After that i did message You when i left at 1 pm.
First thing i did after i had messaged You i went to Safeway to get a few packages of batteries, that cling wrap You requested, and i bought 2 travel tubes of toothpaste so i could keep in my purse with me. After safeway i had to go pickup my friends, get my tires topped off with air then get gas. We did stop off for some sandwiches at the nearby Bread Garden right before we embarked on our trip. Before i left the Bread Garden i did use their washroom, which was a one person one that had a lock. While in there i did masturbate for the 5 minutes while thinking of You. i kept thinking of being Your's and scanning through Your pictures in my head as i knelt on the washroom floor, naked with my clothes sitting on the counter, and with my thighs parted. After about the 5 minutes i applied some water with the toothpaste all over my mound, clit and in my canal.
The driving itself took about 4 and a half hours and we made it to Kelowna, and to our cabin by 7:30 pm. Once we got into our cabin and moved our gear in, plus set up our bedding situation i made my way to the washroom. i hope this pleased Miss but i decided since i did not masturbate for You for over 4 hours that i would dedicate 15 minutes to You in the washroom without cumming, the whole time i was kneeled with the plug on medium, naked with my thighs parted, fingering. By the end of this session i was weak kneed and i swear Your image dominated my mind.
After our short break we went get dinner at the local Keg. i had gotten a baseball cut steak, vegetables and garlic mashed potatoes. Along with my dinner i got a pair of run and cokes. Following dinner we walked around to try to see what Kelowna had to offer and where things were located. We eventually found our way to an Irish bar where we stopped to sit and enjoy a few drinks. During our stop i did make my way to the washroom where i used a stall to masturbate and think of You. i had to sit naked on the seat and masturbate with the plug set to medium. i could not get the toothpaste applied here as the washroom was busier and i do apologize.
After this pub we went back to our rooms where i washed up, masturbated once more for You and this time apply the toothpaste before i went to bed.
i know while i slept You were a part of my dreams. The only part i remembered was that You were all dressed hip and trendy, and not much like a domme, and You had me dressed like a prostitute with very high heels and i was being paraded around Your friends by a leash. That is the only part i remembered when i woke up. As i woke up the 2nd day i went to the washroom to shower, change the batteries to the plug so they had full power for the new day. As i reinserted the plug after my shower, i masturbated for the first time this day. As instructed i did set it to high as i fingered. As i promised i did not cum. After getting dressed we made our way to the market to pickup makings for breakfast, then back to the cabin to make breakfast, eat breakfast and clean up. After the cleanup we lounged around the deck enjoying some on the sun. During this time i did make my way to the washroom to perform my timely fingering with the plug to high.
i sat in the sun a bit more before i went to the pool. i did go back to the washroom to remove the plug, then reported to the pool right away. For the next while we spent time in the pool and hot tubs. As it got a bit later we left the pool, i went to get changed and re-insert the plug. While i re-inserted it, i did masturbate once again as it was coming close to the time.
Following the pool and the sun i did take a nap with the plug on before we went to the Memphis blues for dinner. After dinner we went back to the cabin to change into more club friendly attire. i also used this time to have another session in the washroom. By about this time yesterday my mind and body have been going crazy, having to hold back my orgasms, my mind was overflowing with You, every thought was of You.
We went to the closest night club to us which seemed like the most happening night club in Kelowna. It was called Sapphire and had a huge lineup out front. i was able to get in free and pretty fast with my friends.We spent the next 4 hours in the club drinking and dancing, and don't worry once more Miss i did go the washroom twice while at Sapphire, and twice i did not cum. i also could not do the toothpaste application due to it being too busy in the club washroom.
Following the club we went back to our cabin where we drank until we fell asleep lol. In that time i did manage to masturbate once more before i washed up for bed. This one particular time i masturbated and think of You and reflect on every time i masturbated during this weekend. This one session wound up going from 10-15 minutes as i had lost track thinking of you sooo much. Unlike the times at the club i was able this time to apply the toothpaste, water mixture all over my mound, clit and canal before i slept.
In the morning (that was earlier today) i woke up and exactly like the day before i woke, showered, change the batteries to the plug, masturbated with the plug on the highest setting while thinking of You, then applying more of the toothpaste. We did not get up to much more besides this, having breakfast together and a small walk before we left the cabin and began to drive home. i drove for 4-5 hours after that driving back to Vancouver, then driving my friends home. As soon as i gotten home i unpacked, washed and fingered one last time (this time for 15 minutes) to make up all the times i could not masturbate for since i was driving. Right after this session, including my last application of the toothpaste i came back here to write You my loving Miss Lindy.
i never did get to using the cling wrap for the 2nd part of Your assignment. For the days of the entire trip all i wore was bikinis or bikini tops and short shorts. For the night club i did wear a relatively revealing short dress that did not cover my breasts. i intentionally wore outfits that did not cover my breasts as the weather permitted such, and i did not want to disappoint You. i did bring the cling wrap home and will wear it for You another time. i am sorry i did not use it at all, bit i do promise i did not cover my breasts or wear things that would.
Overall the entire trip made me VERY horny for You, the first while i had the vibrating butt plug in i was not used to having it for soo long. My mind and body besides having been on edge all weekend left me feeling rather tired and week. Also i do believe i have Your image emotionally and physically embedded into my brain now Miss. i do thank You for the 3 part assignment and i do hope i have completed it to Your satisfaction. i did try hard to write a lot of detail on this assignment for You, however i am feeling very tired from the many hours of driving this weekend. If i have missed anything out Miss or You have more details of anything, please do say and i will respond with an answer.
Assignment for 23rd of June 2011
Synopsis:
i was to go through my collarme profile, take each interest then write an explanation as to why i put each interest in each category & what experience i have in that interest. i was to also give explanations to all the ones i dislike and hate as well.
Assignment:
Lives For:
i was to go through my collarme profile, take each interest then write an explanation as to why i put each interest in each category & what experience i have in that interest. i was to also give explanations to all the ones i dislike and hate as well.
Assignment:
Lives For:
Bondage - i have my beliefs that this is more than a kink but more it is a part of the BDSM lifestyle. i respect and love the lifestyle and live for it as i believe it will live for me as part of my life. In the lifestyle where it takes both parties willing to give something in a beautiful partnering.
Loves:
Ass Play - i am not really a painslut, but after i got into my first D/s relationship i truly discovered the joys in the feel, whether its the pain, the stretch or the general more fullness it creates. i love how it can be punishment if done differently, or it can be extremely pleasureful, or even a combination of the 2.
Body Worship - this aspect i actually had on here as a Domme. i used to love when i sub would obsess over my body to the point they would do anything just to touch it. Now as a sub i still enjoy it as i appreciate beautiful bodies, and would more than willingly worship Your gorgeous body Miss Lindy. Funny thing is the parts of the body i would worship most would be Miss' amazing eyes and lips (smile).
Breast Play - i enjoy breast play because in BDSM there is so much more that can be done with it. There can be bindings, clampings, even piercings. i just find it beautiful and compared to a vanilla relationship there is much more originality and options for them. i cannot say i have had any of this as a submissive but i would love to experiment with my Mistress and see how it feels on the other side of the "whip" lol
Collars - i LOVE collars. As a sub and as a Domme i feel the collar as a gorgeous sign of acceptance, obedience and love. to obtain a collar the sub must work hard to prove they are worthy, as a Domme they give it out of love, and their want for that sub to be a part of them. i think of the collar as almost like a marriage, in how it is a joining. My sub side rather loves the idea of being collared and being someone else's property. i know i will always uphold the rules and tasks given to me, as a sign of my love and devotion.
Enemas - As a Domme i used to love using enemas as a punishment, to have them filled so much their belly fills. Giving the effect of being pregnant. As a submissive i find this rather humiliating to be stretched internally, and to be made to look more fat or pregnant. i once made my sub hold in an enema with a butt plug and have to go to the mall shopping with her tummy all bloated. And having her try on different clothes that made it show even more.
Fisting - i truly love fisting, how it can make me full and orgasm more than a few times in a row. i love how i used to use this as a sexual punishment, to give the most painful and spasm filled orgasms to the point the submissive cried and begged for it to stop. i just love the power it gives on either side of the spectrum of BDSM.
Leashes - i love leashes because it is what i feel a major part of the collar. i love being led around with one, i just think this one is a huge sign of submission. i think of it as a symbol of giving. Also i have always wanted to try puppy play and be forced to live as a puppy for a week or so, so the leash is a huge part of that lol
Masks (Wearing) - i loveeee how the mask takes away the identity, making the one just a doll , or a identity-less toy. The feel of having my face taken away, how it keeps you pretty much anonymous. i feel a sub having one on has nothing, everything taken away, from property or identity to everything.
Outdoor Bondage - i enjoy the outdoors a lot, in bondage how this can be humiliating. The risk of being caught or others seeing. i just love humiliation on every level, and this one is a huge part of the physical humiliation. The different feel of an activity like spanking if it is done outdoors creates for me such a strong emotional response
Pony/Puppy Roleplay - i just enjoy roleplay. i love how this is very de-humanizing and how this is VERY humiliating for any sub to do. i love how being a pony or puppy has different ways to show appreciation, loyalty and love. How the feel of being an animal, how you can feel free and bound at the same time.
Strap-Ons - i love the power of wearing one of my partner wearing one and using it on me. i think this is one of the reasons i never missed men. i have always enjoyed the emotional side of dating a female more, and as for the sexual with a strap on this takes the want for a male member away from me. Plus i think a Domme wearing one is soooo sexy and powerful. i know seeing You with one i will be able to do nothing but follow all instructions and bow to You.
Uniforms - like in role play i just love how a uniform can create a scene or enhance it. How it can make a sexual encounter far more, how it can take you into a world of the scene and let you dive more into the role.
Vibrators - i do believe every girl loves vibrators. They are such an aid to getting to orgasms, especially for those lazy nights. i love how much more hard, quick and intense the orgasms can get. As a Domme i used to love binding the sub with vibrators on them and keeping them bound like that for a long time unable to cum, i found it to be just humiliating and also such a major workout for them.
Female Supremacy - As a Domme i always wanted people to think of me as superior, when i talked to men i would always act superior. As a sub i find women far superior as Dominants, in that they can control male subs and i feel have more of a feel of female subs. i know i would always follow a female Dominant's orders more intently as i feel more relaxed to the idea of following a strong superior female. i feel You are a young yet extremely strong Dominant and i already feel Your superiority.
Lifestyle BDSM - i love the lifestyle, how it is creative, how it is different, how it makes me feel free. i love the dynamics, the symbolism, the roles everything. Every since i first got into the lifestyle i have always been attracted to it. At first the sexual part and later the respect and love factors. How a submissive has their own power and mind and gives up their submission out of love for that Dominant. i feel each part of BDSM is special and sets it apart from vanilla life. i feel it can be a getaway, or even a way of life. i love how it can be spiritual, mental, physical, emotional. i enjoy how many levels this lifestyle is and how much invested one can get into it.
Likes:
Begging - i used to like begging to a certain degree as a Domme before i gagged them lol. As a submissive i use begging to please a Domme but do not really find this one extremely sexy nor do i find it disgusting. i am rather neutral to begging, and am willing to do it all the time as long as it is what You wish
Cages - i love how much a cage confines, and how a sub looks in one. For a sub to actually enter and accept being in a cage, i think is beautiful. i do not know why but i find the idea of being put in a tiny cage for You very appealing, how it shows property and ownership, how it shows the sub's willingness to be placed into this confinement for You.
Crossdressing - i have always found females, that crossdress in men's clothing to be very adorable and cute. i have always wanted to be given a boy's haircut and forced into their clothes, even wearing a realistic strap on. Then being made to walk in public. i find it to be very humiliating and sexy. i have always felt this was one of my major perverted things i like. As for men wearing female clothes i would not mind however i always find men to have no sense in style or what looks good on them. i feel they still think like a man and dress as if they were men dressing up a female. That is except for some transsexuals, NOT all lol.
Diapers - i do not like scat yet i do like diapers. i have always had a fascination with adult babies, as in being one not owning one. i have always wantes to be taken in by a Domme and made to relive my entire life as in a rebirth in my life with Her. To have my hair shaved off and made to live back as a baby in a diaper and do things that allow me to gain more years in age until i have grown back to an adult, and my hair grows back on its own lol
Humiliation - i loveeeeee humiliation, every part of it. Emotional, physical, metal, public etc. As a Domme i used to loveeee humiliating subs, and as a sub i love the emotional responses it creates. i don't know why but being made to blush hard and feel like curling up and dying really turns me on. This one should actually go under lives for, but i think i clicked it wrong. i think it maybe the risk factor, or maybe it is the reason for my perversion, but i find this to be a huge turn on and love.
Masks (On Partner) - this one i do not particularly like on my Domme (i loved it as a Domme though), especially You. As i have listed above i find that masks take away identity and i would never want my Mistress to take Her identity away. i find masks to be submissive and as a sub i do not wish it to my Domme.
Objectification - i do enjoy being made or having made others into other things. Like making a sub a chair or table. It really shows how hard they work or how devoted they are, to ignore their own aches and pains and be a steady object for their Dominants likings. i find objectification to be sexy and doing it has a very submissive feel.
Plastic Wrap - i actually like wrapping in general not just plastic. i have liked since my early days of discovery mummification of a sub. The helplessness, the beauty. i love how it can create a claustrophobic fee. i have never actually had this done to me, only done this to others and have a desire to try it for myself and to feel for myself how it is and see what emotions i have when its done to me.
Sensory Deprivation - i have actually more than like and now have developed a love for sensory dep ever since i submitted to that sub for her birthday. i love how every sense is taken away and You are left more helpless than if you cannot move your limbs. i love how You try to focus more on your other senses yet if those are taken away too how more lonely and in the dark of everything. i love the surprise and the unknowing of what is to come.
Spanking - as a Domme i liked how a hand felt against a bum. How this too can be used as a pleasurable reward or as a punishment. i find being spanked humiliating as this is something that is in vanilla done to a bad child. i don't know why but even if i enjoy being spanked i do feel bad for what i have done, and even more so since i will be blushing.
Suspension - this one should actually be more under curious about as i have not actually experienced this one as either a Domme or as a sub. i have always wanted to feel the helplessness of being suspended in the air. i have a bit of a height problem so this one makes me feel very on edge, and wonder how it feels for real and what else can be done to illicit other emotional responses. i am unsure what kinds of emotions i will have when this is being done to me.
Tolerates:
Orgasm Control - i always preferred to be allowed to cum when i can and not be told when to. i will however hold all orgasms unless allowed if that is what it takes to please You. i tolerate this as i will do if it is required to please. But when not required i am selfish and like to have orgasms at will *blushes*
Serving as a Maid/Butler - i find this one as more of a slave thing. i will do it for You Miss if You want it and it pleases You, but i just have no yearning to be a maid or butler 24/7. i do not like how it limits the relationship and how it gets no where but servitude. i just find it rather impersonal for my own tastes
Curious About:
Chastity - i have never really found the love of chastity but would love to experienceit and get to know what the whole thing is about. Although i have always liked a freedom to cum. As a Domme i never used chastity but instead the opposite, to get the submissive to cum more than they want to or think are able to. Kind of like a pleasureful torment, hence i do not know much but am curious about chastity
Hypnosis i have always wished to be hypnotized. To be embedded with commands i am unaware of. To have my Domme holding me with just words, saying commands that makes me do things i am unaware of why i am doing it. Just the power and control amaze me. i feel this one i wish more for now that i am more submissive than Domme. i think it is because i lacked the knowledge to do it as a Domme, i hope i can gain it as a sub.
Medical Play - i find medical play a bit foreign to me as i know nothing of it. But i see toys and videos and have always wished to learn more if not participate in it with an experienced other. i think it is because i have not found being at a doctor's sexy, yet i have always felt the roles, and the outfits to be gorgeous.
Mental Bondage - i want to do more of this as i feel i have done too much physical and not as much mental bondage. i just wish to feel how its like to be bound by my own mind instead of physically being bound. To have a new level of bondage i have never tried. i am curious of something i have never tried.
Dislikes:
Foot Worship - i do not like feet, i have no foot fetish within me. i just don't like the idea of worship of something i use to walk around. i knowits not really THAT dirty, but i just find it unsanitary for some reason. i do not really wish to kiss them or to suck on toes. i will kiss a foot to show my love but i just do like like this one particular subject.
Knife Play - i do not like the feel of having a knife close or used on me to create an emotional response. Maybe it is because i have had friends stabbed, but i do not have any trust in knife play, or any desire to have it happen or use it. i feel the same emotional response can be created with other means like a while, paddle belt. i feel this one to be a dangerous play that could lead to one of my limits, blood play.
Hates:
Needle Play - i do not like actual needles like syringes, or the ones used for sewing. i do not mind piercing needles, as i find them sexy on a sub. i do not like needles in general and have always disliked them. i never liked getting my shots. As for sewing needles, i have seen videos where the sub has had them pinned all over their body. This does not really turn me on, and actually is a turn off. i just don't like the feel or even to look at this so i find it a hate
Hard Limits:
Assignment for 22nd of June 2011
Synopsis:
i was to write an essay about my likes & dislikes, both in life, in general as well as kink-wise. What i like/dislike in the world of sex etc. If there any acts that i particularly like or hate. Lastly i was to outline my sexuality & sexual history.
Assignment:
To start with my likes and dislikes in life, i always enjoy lifes ever searching quest for knowledge. i enjoy knowing i learn something each day, and try to keep finding new things to learn each day. i enjoy how each day life can be different, always seeming to keep you on your feet. Never exactly knowing what is to come, if anything even comes, when it comes and what it could be. Its always somewhat different. i always enjoy trying to make someone(s) smile each day, trying to brighten peoples day with maybe just a comment, or even a joke.
My dislikes to life are i guess sometimes it seems to drag. The uncertainty of tomorrow, although i said i like it i hate it at the same time. How life sometimes seem to stall or be stagnant. i hate how it seems when things go wrong, everything goes wrong, although i think its just perception. i always try to not look at the dislikes in life, and concentrate on the people around me, friends, family, etc. They always seem to make my life a great deal better, through all the bad and good.
My likes and dislikes of the BDSM lifestyle...
i guess the biggest thing i love of the kink/ bdsm lifestyle is that the relationship is built on trust. i love how the sub gives their submission to the Dom/me and in turn for their guidance, instruction, trust and their love. i love the control. As a Domme i loved the devotion, trust and power. As a submissive i love being able to just give myself to one i trust, to trust their each wish, and command. i truly love how they bring out emotional responses, some of which normally is not sexy, but when drawn out with a specific kink can be beautiful and sexy. i love how it can be on so many levels, emotionally and physically, how there are so many things that can be done as activities.
My dislikes to the lifestyle are pretty simple, those who do not respect or abuse the lifestyle to hurt others or themselves. How some use it for their own gain. i have always had a belief that true bdsm is beautiful and cannot be counted in dollars. i dislike how it is deemed to be perverted and "bad". The image is always in bad light, and should not be as it is commonly misunderstood.
My sexuality, i say i am kind of bi, and kind of lesbian. i have been bi since i have been 15, but since about 24 i have really not dated any men, and i have not even missed them. i have found women to be more pleasing as i feel a woman knows how to please a woman easier. Its the same how i feel for a Domme, how i feel a domme would know how to Domme a subby girl more than a Dom. How she would know their capabilities, and limits. i would not classify myself as a full lesbian though as i know i would sleep with men, although i think more if the Domme instructs me to do so.
i am going to go over my history before my likes and dislikes as i feel my history will reveal more into the likes and dislikes. my first sexual experience was with a boy at age 13. He was my boyfriend at the time, and was 15. After about a month of dating i went to his place after a movie since his parents were not home. i was scared and pretty much just laid on his bed naked and he did all the work. i remember it hurt and that it did not last too long, just about 5-10 minutes. my first bi experience happened when i was 14, just a few weeks shy of 15 with my friend. Her and i had come to my house after school. While home watching TV, we discovered my father had left an adult video in the VCR. When we put it on we saw 2 girls doing things to each other and we decided to go to my room and try out what we saw. We continued to keep experimenting for 2 hours or so until my family got home.
For many years sine my first bi experience i began to what i call "slut out". i was young and a bit of a brat, i began sleeping with boys and girls randomly for years. i was trying to act out. i slept with girls and boys, sometimes with more than 1 partner. Once i slept with 2 men at the same time. i had been with up to 3 people at the same time all before i had gotten to 18. my first anal was pretty bad, i was basically raped by my bf at the time. i was about 16 when this happened.This time he pretended he accidentally pushed it to the wrong hole, however when i said stop he pinned me down and kept going. Fortunately for me he didn't last too long, only 2 minutes maximum. And When he ended i did yell and make fun of him for lacking in size lol. i did not wind up liking anal until i got into my first D/s relationship.
My first D/s happened when i was 18-20. i met this girl at my job at a movie theater who was half japanese, and a year younger than me. Within a month of dating she became my girlfriend, and after 3 months of dating we began to experiment and research things about bdsm. We started small with trying up and spanking. We eventually went on to buying toys, which turned into my hobby lol. Tried different fetishes like outdoor, fisting, enemas etc. She wound up growing more dominant as i became the submissive without even knowing our full roles, just letting them grow on us. Our relationship ended only due to her move for school, she had to move to Boston, and now lives there for work.
My next major relationship, which i consider my first real grown up relationship came when i was 21/22 to this tall blonde girl i met at my friend's college. We had dated for almost 2 years. From my D/s relationship to this one i feel is when i gave up my "slut out" ways and became more of an adult. i got her into bdsm and started to discover my Domme ways. i discovered more into bdsm and began to understand how it was more than just sex. We eventually grew apart as i wanted to get more into bdsm and she wanted to get more into family. We would eventually break up, but this relationship did lead me into not dating men anymore as i felt it was kind of my clean slate away from my slutty years.
After that relationship i dated only women, and went more into becoming a Domme. i had 2 submissive gf's, had 2 different online ones and had trained s subby girls in person. My submissive side had died with my first D/s relationship until my 2nd subby girl. i did tell Miss all about what happened in that relationship and how that one led to me rediscovering my submissive side.
Why do i like sex, i like it because i feel it is pleasurable for both parties. How it can be loving, how it can be very animalistic and adventurous. i also love the pleasure of it *blushes* What i dislike of sex is how it can dominate peoples lives like it did me, how i got lost in it and became fixated with it. i hate how sex can change a relationship or how people perceive another.
My likes and hates for sex lol...hmmmm...where to start. i guess i will start with my limits which are pretty much my hates. i don't like blood, permanent marks, scat, pee, amputation, snuff, animals and feet. Ewwww feet, i cannot stand, i don't know why i just don't like it at all ewwwwwww. My likes are a bit more vast, and i don't even know all my likes as i love to experiment with things and discover more of myself. i know for a fact i love humiliation, anal (so that cucumber in the butt i would loveee), fisting, stockings, dressing up, puppy play, age play (including diapers), enemas and others lol.
i also have this one fetish i developed as Domme, i am loving shaving a sub's hair, all of it including eye brows. To me a girl without any hair can be sooo beautiful, and its an ultimate sign of submission to a Domme. Also its a sign of their new life as that Domme's property. much like how a baby comes into the world and grows hair, the sub does the same in this life. i am not really a pain slut but can take much punishment for a Domme's pleasure although if it is punishment i can promise i would take it as such and not as a treat. i know i probably have more likes and hates but i cannot seem to think them out right now.
i was to write an essay about my likes & dislikes, both in life, in general as well as kink-wise. What i like/dislike in the world of sex etc. If there any acts that i particularly like or hate. Lastly i was to outline my sexuality & sexual history.
Assignment:
To start with my likes and dislikes in life, i always enjoy lifes ever searching quest for knowledge. i enjoy knowing i learn something each day, and try to keep finding new things to learn each day. i enjoy how each day life can be different, always seeming to keep you on your feet. Never exactly knowing what is to come, if anything even comes, when it comes and what it could be. Its always somewhat different. i always enjoy trying to make someone(s) smile each day, trying to brighten peoples day with maybe just a comment, or even a joke.
My dislikes to life are i guess sometimes it seems to drag. The uncertainty of tomorrow, although i said i like it i hate it at the same time. How life sometimes seem to stall or be stagnant. i hate how it seems when things go wrong, everything goes wrong, although i think its just perception. i always try to not look at the dislikes in life, and concentrate on the people around me, friends, family, etc. They always seem to make my life a great deal better, through all the bad and good.
My likes and dislikes of the BDSM lifestyle...
i guess the biggest thing i love of the kink/ bdsm lifestyle is that the relationship is built on trust. i love how the sub gives their submission to the Dom/me and in turn for their guidance, instruction, trust and their love. i love the control. As a Domme i loved the devotion, trust and power. As a submissive i love being able to just give myself to one i trust, to trust their each wish, and command. i truly love how they bring out emotional responses, some of which normally is not sexy, but when drawn out with a specific kink can be beautiful and sexy. i love how it can be on so many levels, emotionally and physically, how there are so many things that can be done as activities.
My dislikes to the lifestyle are pretty simple, those who do not respect or abuse the lifestyle to hurt others or themselves. How some use it for their own gain. i have always had a belief that true bdsm is beautiful and cannot be counted in dollars. i dislike how it is deemed to be perverted and "bad". The image is always in bad light, and should not be as it is commonly misunderstood.
My sexuality, i say i am kind of bi, and kind of lesbian. i have been bi since i have been 15, but since about 24 i have really not dated any men, and i have not even missed them. i have found women to be more pleasing as i feel a woman knows how to please a woman easier. Its the same how i feel for a Domme, how i feel a domme would know how to Domme a subby girl more than a Dom. How she would know their capabilities, and limits. i would not classify myself as a full lesbian though as i know i would sleep with men, although i think more if the Domme instructs me to do so.
i am going to go over my history before my likes and dislikes as i feel my history will reveal more into the likes and dislikes. my first sexual experience was with a boy at age 13. He was my boyfriend at the time, and was 15. After about a month of dating i went to his place after a movie since his parents were not home. i was scared and pretty much just laid on his bed naked and he did all the work. i remember it hurt and that it did not last too long, just about 5-10 minutes. my first bi experience happened when i was 14, just a few weeks shy of 15 with my friend. Her and i had come to my house after school. While home watching TV, we discovered my father had left an adult video in the VCR. When we put it on we saw 2 girls doing things to each other and we decided to go to my room and try out what we saw. We continued to keep experimenting for 2 hours or so until my family got home.
For many years sine my first bi experience i began to what i call "slut out". i was young and a bit of a brat, i began sleeping with boys and girls randomly for years. i was trying to act out. i slept with girls and boys, sometimes with more than 1 partner. Once i slept with 2 men at the same time. i had been with up to 3 people at the same time all before i had gotten to 18. my first anal was pretty bad, i was basically raped by my bf at the time. i was about 16 when this happened.This time he pretended he accidentally pushed it to the wrong hole, however when i said stop he pinned me down and kept going. Fortunately for me he didn't last too long, only 2 minutes maximum. And When he ended i did yell and make fun of him for lacking in size lol. i did not wind up liking anal until i got into my first D/s relationship.
My first D/s happened when i was 18-20. i met this girl at my job at a movie theater who was half japanese, and a year younger than me. Within a month of dating she became my girlfriend, and after 3 months of dating we began to experiment and research things about bdsm. We started small with trying up and spanking. We eventually went on to buying toys, which turned into my hobby lol. Tried different fetishes like outdoor, fisting, enemas etc. She wound up growing more dominant as i became the submissive without even knowing our full roles, just letting them grow on us. Our relationship ended only due to her move for school, she had to move to Boston, and now lives there for work.
My next major relationship, which i consider my first real grown up relationship came when i was 21/22 to this tall blonde girl i met at my friend's college. We had dated for almost 2 years. From my D/s relationship to this one i feel is when i gave up my "slut out" ways and became more of an adult. i got her into bdsm and started to discover my Domme ways. i discovered more into bdsm and began to understand how it was more than just sex. We eventually grew apart as i wanted to get more into bdsm and she wanted to get more into family. We would eventually break up, but this relationship did lead me into not dating men anymore as i felt it was kind of my clean slate away from my slutty years.
After that relationship i dated only women, and went more into becoming a Domme. i had 2 submissive gf's, had 2 different online ones and had trained s subby girls in person. My submissive side had died with my first D/s relationship until my 2nd subby girl. i did tell Miss all about what happened in that relationship and how that one led to me rediscovering my submissive side.
Why do i like sex, i like it because i feel it is pleasurable for both parties. How it can be loving, how it can be very animalistic and adventurous. i also love the pleasure of it *blushes* What i dislike of sex is how it can dominate peoples lives like it did me, how i got lost in it and became fixated with it. i hate how sex can change a relationship or how people perceive another.
My likes and hates for sex lol...hmmmm...where to start. i guess i will start with my limits which are pretty much my hates. i don't like blood, permanent marks, scat, pee, amputation, snuff, animals and feet. Ewwww feet, i cannot stand, i don't know why i just don't like it at all ewwwwwww. My likes are a bit more vast, and i don't even know all my likes as i love to experiment with things and discover more of myself. i know for a fact i love humiliation, anal (so that cucumber in the butt i would loveee), fisting, stockings, dressing up, puppy play, age play (including diapers), enemas and others lol.
i also have this one fetish i developed as Domme, i am loving shaving a sub's hair, all of it including eye brows. To me a girl without any hair can be sooo beautiful, and its an ultimate sign of submission to a Domme. Also its a sign of their new life as that Domme's property. much like how a baby comes into the world and grows hair, the sub does the same in this life. i am not really a pain slut but can take much punishment for a Domme's pleasure although if it is punishment i can promise i would take it as such and not as a treat. i know i probably have more likes and hates but i cannot seem to think them out right now.
Introduction
Hello i would like to thank everyone for stopping by my blog. i do hope Y/you all enjoy reading this. For my first few posts after this one i will be going over the past few assignments i have completed for my Mistress. i will say the date, then a brief synopsis as to what the task is. Then i will follow with a cut and paste of the message detailing the assignment back to my Miss.
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